mataba,fat,seksik!!

NAKAKAINISSS!!!

haaaayy so sorry if i was screaming, i just cant hide my disappointment from those people who only sees your body size and not what underlines it, :(
ikw b nmn pagpasok mo pa lng sa pinto wala ng ibang sasabihin kundi mataba, mataba mataba! my god, hindi n nga pinapansin, ulit ulitin talaga, at sa lahat ng usapan kailangan ipagdiinan na mataba??!!!
o cia, cge na, kau n ang payat, tanung ko lng maganda ka ba???
wala n bang pwedeng ibng sabihin, kaya ba napakabigat ng paa ko sa pagpunta sa bahay na yun, kaya ba napaka-hirap ilapit ang sarili ko sa knila, kasi wla n cla ginawa kundi kutyain ang katawan ko :( and honestly, it was so depressing for me :( why cant they accept who i am,what my body size is and what i can do for them :( my God, is the body size the norm in accepting people in your lives :( kawawa nman kau, ur missing too much from me :(

taong bahay

Its been three days since I last went out of the house.. I hate to question God for what is happenning on me right now.. I still hold on my belief that is everything is happening for some great reason, reasons that we will never knew untill an unexpected event will happen, and make us think that GOd had prepare us for that..

things to do..

My mind was pre-occupied with lots of things these past few days, ive got few more weeks left but still ive got so many things that need to be done. Mind you, it even comes in my dreams, that almost everyday i will woke up all of a sudden and started to think what are those things i needed to do. (sigh!)

I went to the bank yesterday and inquired if I can transfer my bank account to the Philippines and they said its possible and i needed to talk with one of the in charge to get things processes, so I'll come back on monday. ok! Bank: check and after the salary i will close my other bank and then advise my business manager for it. Next step will be my boxes, I must finish it next week, so i need to sort out all the kalat under my bed. I already filled up two of three boxes and yet still theres more. (parang di nauubos) and schedule a farewell party seperate for friends and family.

And still next week, I must go to the Inland revenue to file my P85. It takes time as well. (ohh I got a headache already) I should put in everything with my schedule and target to finish evrything next week. At least ive been to the bank yesterday.WAy to go !!

whats up?

Nothing much happened to me the last week, i have been busy working and sorting my things, im in a not so happy mood as the day pass by..

last mon (7-7-08) my tito art and boyet's father died (who happens to be my grand father, his a sister of my grandmother who is my father's mom, gets?:-) so they had to rush home the following day, (7-8-08) hinatid nmin sila sa airport and it was a heartbreaking moment. my tito boyet was a bit afraid, He cant accept that he's coming home for that kind of reason. :(

haaayy im just burrying myself sa work, for me not to feel the emptiness and sadness inside me, im missing my uncles and at the same time im being sad cause the days are quickly passing by. uuwi n me and part of me is breaking and part of me is smiling.. gulo ko noh! basta im planning to enjoy and make the most out of my remaining days!!

nasa isip ko lang..

haaaay naku.. earlier today i fixed one of my box going to philippines, it was a mixed emotion. nalungkot naman ako bigla, ewan ko ba.. pero natutuwa n rin naman ako at finally e malapit ko n uling makasama yung family ko. kaya isip ko n lang magkakaiba tayo ng kapalaran, hindi ito ang para sa akin, marami pang pwedeng mangyari sa akin sa pinas n baka mas masaya ako dun. haaayy (im I trying to convince my self or what? hehe..)

any way as I said, magkakaiba tyo, meron akong mga kakilala graduate ng magandang skul, pero anu? ng-asawa, ng pk nanay sa ibang bansa.. o di ba masaya cia?!. kaya di ba dapat lang nman hanapin natin ang mga bagay na makapagpapasaya sa atin at hindi ang mga bagay na matutustusan ang mga materyal na bagay na panganagilangan ntin..

Sasayangin ko nga ang opportunity na ito pero, pupunta nman ako sa lugar n kung saan masaya ako. kasi nman para sa akin routine n ang buhay ko dito, bahay, work, school.. tsaka sayang nman yung binabayad ko sa skul at nabasa ko pa sa home office n my bago namang law ung Home office. mg id n daw.. naku e mas lalo ng masusugsog kung napasok k o hindi.. hehe.. haaayy tama n gusto ko ng iwan ang mga prblema dito. gusto ko nman ng bagong adventure.. bagong challenge naman..tama n cguro ang tatlong taon ko dito..

no more monday night please..

last night was another toxic monday night. same day, same duty and same place! and i really hate it. Im doing my best in every duty but still there are things that has been missed... so id rather changed my work days dahil baka sa pangatlo masama p ako sa bibingo! good thing next week im on holiday so i will miss it but in the folowing wik i will make sure that my duty doesnt include monday nyt.. i want to complete my duty until oct.. so please spare me..

no more please... no more!