some of my Clay creations.. :-)

hes coming home

Finally my husband is coming home again. haha, its been 7 months when he fly back to work and i miss him terribly You see, we just get married last January and it was too hard for us to go separate ways again just weeks after are wedding day, but that's life! He need to go to work for our better future.

come to think of it we should be taking it easy by now, i mean being separated. Because our situation has been like that for almost 6 years now, if my readers (as if many) could remember it is I who went abroad first and after two years when i finally decided to go home, my boyfriend then decided to look for work overseas. it wasn't that difficult because we were used to the situations of being apart, thanks to the internet we can see each other everyday spite of our distance.

enough of the look backs, hes coming home this Oct for another short vacation, i know "short vacation" only but, it is better than not seeing him again. hope this time God will bless us with a baby.. Good luck to Us ;)

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pain in love

I don't know what i am feeling right now, blue? odd? sad? what ever you may call it, all i know is that I am not happy at my current state. Been arguing with the husband about certain things that link with the past situation. As much as I wanted i want to forget all about it and start a new, but every time I  find myself in the same boat, I cant help but think about it all over again, its like a movie scene that keeps rewinding in my head and I cant stop it, i keep telling my self that i need to let go of the past to start fresh for our future, but its like a dream that hunt me and i need to voice it out to make me calm but in exchange it will hurt the feelings of my husband. I get too frustrated and don't know how to deal with it.

The things we argue about may seem shallow to some people but kinda necessary for me to bargain with, its all about broken promises, that in the past that i just forgive but today seems to be a habit for him, i can understand some situations but then again, I'm just human, i wont able to take all the annoyance as it files up through the years, I continue to forgive him for everything but it seems things doesn't change, It continually happens every now and then and I hate myself for letting it take place over and over. But what can I do, I love the person and every word that comes out from his mouth i undoubtedly believed and embraced it unquestionably, but there are times that i ask myself if i have to believe it again? shall i in store it in my mind and heart or just let pass through my other ear, my heart was broken a few times, good times heals it but crash every time a promise was not fulfilled. Sometimes i blamed myself for letting it arise, asked myself why i didn't learn from the past situation, but then again those situations strengthen me and I am still not loosing hope that someday one of those broken promises will still come true.

Hope is always there as long as i accept that things will not go on, on our own happiness. Only time will tell when all things become possible..

mataba,fat,seksik!!

NAKAKAINISSS!!!

haaaayy so sorry if i was screaming, i just cant hide my disappointment from those people who only sees your body size and not what underlines it, :(
ikw b nmn pagpasok mo pa lng sa pinto wala ng ibang sasabihin kundi mataba, mataba mataba! my god, hindi n nga pinapansin, ulit ulitin talaga, at sa lahat ng usapan kailangan ipagdiinan na mataba??!!!
o cia, cge na, kau n ang payat, tanung ko lng maganda ka ba???
wala n bang pwedeng ibng sabihin, kaya ba napakabigat ng paa ko sa pagpunta sa bahay na yun, kaya ba napaka-hirap ilapit ang sarili ko sa knila, kasi wla n cla ginawa kundi kutyain ang katawan ko :( and honestly, it was so depressing for me :( why cant they accept who i am,what my body size is and what i can do for them :( my God, is the body size the norm in accepting people in your lives :( kawawa nman kau, ur missing too much from me :(

Mrs.C

i miss blogging!.. Oh how i miss writing ;) its been a while since I last post something in here :), I have change a lot as u can see on this post tittle i am now a Mrs.C:) naman!! I got married Last January to the man of my dreams *kilig* lol.. actually the tag line in my mind was " FINALLY" hahaha.. its been 9 years and finally my boyfriend then finally ask me to marry him =)), i may sound "atat" but im just being myself.. haha if you were to ask me we have lost so much time, but then again I believe that, all happens according to God's plan and i couldn't be happier :)