some of my Clay creations.. :-)

giving it a thought

I happened to browse in the Philippine job net a job that I used to do, I was thinking of applying again its a different country thou.. Im kinda excited about it, but still there are lot of things that need to be consider.. :( haayy nu a yan, Ive here for 8 mos now, and nothing happened yet , I mean I'm doing the same routine for 8 mos now and I want a change, i want to go for another adventure.. haaayy patience! patience! ;)

end

Why things get harder and harder when somethings are about to end? like at work, i only got a few months remaining and things are getting difficult as it should'nt be. naakalungkot lng kasi all the people you've loved before are starting to leave one by one at the place we all once loved. Pero kagaya ko I'm leaving England for good, Its my decision to moved on and seek another adventure for me, and like them why they should remain in one place na hindi nman na sila happy db? haaayy sana lng kc naka alis n me before they all moved out noh.. anyway, its good na rin at least its not very hard for me, if its my time to leave the place. but still its very sad. :(

crazy sked!

Oh my God! my schedule is C-R-A-Z-Y as in.. last saturday I work Night duty and the following day Ill be on LD. Oh boy! Oh boy! it hurts my head thinking how will do it?? WHAT?? so i ended cancelling the early shift and instead do the late shift, which still mad, because im still on nyt duty that sunday..(im crazy) Oh my God! if you only knew how tired I was last that I nearly fell off the seat sleeping on my night duty.. LOL!

.. and this morning ate yvette came to our house to use the webcam to chat with her family back home, and mind you i didnt care how loud they was. Im dead tired and if there's a fire on going, Ill be dead on the spot! :( gosh! I wouldnt do that kind of duty again.. never again! and to proved that when I get up. She left a note saying that she left at that time and borrow some dvd and i check my mobile leaving me a 7 missed call and a voice mail, saying that they we're trap downstair, the main door accidentally locked. :) oh GOd! im dead tired!

saya saya

Last week friday, ate Yvette and I was teasing tito boyet to treat us for a supper. but knowing tito boyet mg pag k-kurips (lol) pinasa sa akin ang panlilibre. So after work we went straight to KFC together with ate Babet and May. Anyway will be having a bucket meal so it alright for them to come. Alfred (ate yvettes husband) is on duty, yehey we will get some free hot wings! sarap! we ordered a 14 pieces chicken with 4 large side order, a 1.5 litre pepsi, 4 large fries and an ice cream. yummy! bigtime!

While having are meal, we're also having an endless kwentuhan and chickahan. But the most laughable moment was when tito Boyet is defending that whatever He cook for the resident they really liked it ganito pa yung linya nya "naku gustong gusto nga nila" (lol) whatever we said He will defend and used that line.Gudness dear! i heard it a hundred times that nyt..LOL

But mind you the most laughable moment was when ate Yvette narrate what the relatives says about tito boyet's way of cooking. gosh, napaiyak nya si tito Boyet, He doesnt care even Carlito over heard it. He should appreciate all the effort He is doing. But mind you i was really laughing hard while ate Yvette was telling it. LOL

My jaw was really in pain by the time we go home, it was one of the most happiest moment ive ever had for a long time. My money was worth it for treating them napasaya nila ako ng sobra.. (lol) till next tym guys!

weekly sked..

here's my weekly sked, everytime Im looking at it napapagod n agad ako.. haaayy napaka-routine ng life here kaya for the rest of my stay i might be doing this rota..

MON: Night
TUE: School day (diretso school after work)
WED: Night
THURS: Late ( after night again, sleep muna then go again)
FRI: Long Day
SAT: 4-10 (this is new to my rota, i requested it to avoid three nights on the row, and i make my morning available for exams in school)
SUN: Night

haayy tiningnan ko p lng yan im already exhausted, i dont have any proper day off noh. anyway ill be on annual leave again the 21st and 27th of july. So i might use it to go around London and to enjoy my remaining days..

resident- carer 2

scene 1: one night Mr. pm had an incident regarding his catheter. it accidentally pull out and need to send to the hospital for re-insertion. and fortunately He came back in the morning int ime for breakfast. At exactly 8am He went out of his room and shouted at the newly arrived day shift carers.

Mr. pm: whats that nose?
Carer: Good morning Mr. Pm. let's seat int he dinning room for breakfast.

All of a sudden Mr. pm cried..

Mr. pm: hu, hu,hu..
Carer: why?, what happened did they hurt you in the hospital?
Mr. pm: no.. its nice to be back.. (tears)
Carers: (all together) aaayyyy

-touch kami.. :,)

scene 2: at 8:30 pm tea and biscuit is served byt he night staff before putting the residents in bed. the lift in one wing was out of order so the carer needed to use the fire exit and it was made of wood. before she reach 2nd floor her footsteps was very heavy.

Carer: (knock) Hello Mrs. B, here's your tea.
Mrs B: (opened the door) come in. Is it you coming from the stairs?
Carer: yes love y?
Mrs B: i thought it was a baby elephant. ;(
Carer: lol

resident-carer relationship

scene 1: Carer went to give breakfast to the resident in bed. the carer's hair still wet so she havent tied it up yet.

Carer: good morning Mrs j, i got your breakfast here.
Mrs j: can you tidy up your hair, its getting on my nerves! :)

scene 2: Its dinner time and already serving pudding.

Carer: Mrs A, do you want plum with custard?
Mrs A: (with hearing problem) what?
Carer: do you want plum with custard?
Mrs a: what?
Carer: ok ill just give you yogurt! :)

scene 3: Sometimes the truth really hurts.. but what can we do?
Here patient calling the carer attending to him.

Mr. K: hey come here "fat face!"
Carer: :( (shocked!)

Scene 4: The nurse asking the client if he needs a pain killer. The nurse is a foreigner and got different accent.

Nurse: Mr G. have u got a Pain? (but she pronounced it as "pen")
Mr G.: (Look at his pocket) oh sorry i havent got.
Nurse: no! have you got pain? (pen)
Mr G: (getting angry) no! i havent got!
Nurse: no, i mean Pain! because if you got i will give you paracetamol.
Mr G: ah you mean Pain?? no, im alright (smiling) :)

Gosh, i nearly burst into laugh hearing them.. lol

Scene 5: The patient ask the care to seat her in the commode. as she sat ont he commode..

Carer: ummm you look very smart tonight. (nearly touching the face)
Mrs D: oh no! no! no! dont touch that you will ruin my beauty! :)

no more monday night please..

last night was another toxic monday night. same day, same duty and same place! and i really hate it. Im doing my best in every duty but still there are things that has been missed... so id rather changed my work days dahil baka sa pangatlo masama p ako sa bibingo! good thing next week im on holiday so i will miss it but in the folowing wik i will make sure that my duty doesnt include monday nyt.. i want to complete my duty until oct.. so please spare me..

no more please... no more!

i am a Caregiver

have you seen sharon cuneta's new movie titled "caregiver". it was shot here in the UK, most of Us filipino's here in england are very excited with the movie. (i think sharon will come for the premiere, or she already came)*my apology*

im a sharonian ever since and i cant wait to see the movie, ive seen the trailer may times and, it put me to tears,its because its like seeing myself with the character being a caregiver here.it gives a different impact,actually its really a mixed emotion, because i can relate with the kind of work and i know the hardship of being a caregiver, there are times na some residents will just crown you or kick you, but you cant do anything di mo nman pwedeng gantihan, first mentally, theyre already ill and they dont know what theyre doing most of the times, second thats why we got a job because of their situations and third, you are there to look after them and make sure they're alright.

being a caregiver is a very humbling job, most of us is a proffesional in the Philippines and because we're seeking for a good life for our family back home, we endure all the pain, the loneliness, the hardship and just take where the wind blows us. there are some patients and co-workers who are racist and will give you a hard time just because they dont want your colour, the place where you came from, they will criticise the way you speak and so on.. but inspite all that being a filipino and known for a hardworking you will accept everything and just be patient and just pray..

in my own experience, being a caregiver here in the UK open my eyes to the real world.. its not easy to make money, no work no pay! when i was starting, i found the job very degrading,and kept asking myself why i am here?! but as the time past by i begun to love the job and the patient, sometimes your day wouldnt complete without seeing your favourite resident, and its an achievement when you teach them something and they will still remember after a few days and when they do remember your name. its a very nice feeling. but on the other hand when somebody dies we also feel that a part of the family has gone, we just think that its already time to end their suffering and they will have a journey where life is more beautiful.

It is a tiring job as well, you'll get backpain, knee pain from keeping on walking up and down, headache and hign blood (as for me!lol) but at the end of the month when we receive our payslip.. everything will be fine(lol)

last week round up..

last week was one of the saddest week of my uk life.. :) its because we dont have internet at home, hehe, i felt that i was disconnected from the outside world.. but now, a big thanks! yipee were connected and running again..

watching dvd's was my past tym last week and a trip to ate mers house just to check my mails just in case somebody replied to my online applications.. but unfortunately there's none.. sad :(

i havent been to school for two weeks and oh boy its bad, actualy i already lost interest when i decided to go home when my visa expires, actually i have lots of plans in mind, and cant wait to push it through.. and school was third to my priority list, i know its not good becoz its the reason why im here, but then again, i have lots of excuses.. hehe :) anyway, my working hours is perfectly alright and im happy, i just need to save more, oh dear!! i need to learn the meaning of the word not just knowing how to spell it (s-a-v-e)! i just need to think of all of my plans so i get some motivation.. go go go joan!!

last friday,i reminded our business manager that i was 36hrs underpaid for the month of march, and she said i just called at the right ime because she's calculating the hours, but then again when i received my pay slip, they didnt pay my bank holiday so i need to remind her next time for another 6 hours .. gosh!

bbc no more..

last wednesday night duty ate mers, told me something that made me really think. While putting the residents in bed, and me wiping the bottom she suddenly said "naku mamimiss mo mg punas ng pwet". quite funny but i just answered her with a smile.

when i was alone cleaning the lounge her words cross my mind and i had a flash back when i was still starting with the job. i was barely a month here in england when i started working as "health care assistant" other refers it as a "british bum cleaning". anyway, like others i had a very memorable first day at work. ate lorna she was then 3 mos pregnant asked me together with the other new lady if we want to serve breakfast or work on the floor. i choose to work on the floor with the thought of "cleaning the floor" as in mopping, floor waxing or etc not knowing that it means assisting the residents in washing and dressing. bad choice isn'it?!(lol) i was partnered with james and we done mrs c. with her i had my first stomach punch and was thinking of quiting the job there and then (lol)

as the days and months pass i learned to cope with my new environment and started to get used with the job and earned the residents and co-workers trust. i was the youngest for three months i was everybody's bunso and little sister but june came 3 more Filipinas came and work and became good friends of mine.

i learned the work pattern and had different time shifts. i was enjoying what i am doing but sometimes it came to a point that you dont want to do the things your used to.. nakakasawa din minsan its been a routine and you want to break it by doing something. you want to try new thinks and have to decide and choose what you think is best.

now im facing a big decision in my life, and as for now im choosing to leave everything behind me, and im quite decided with the steps im going to take. i need to do this for my parents and for my future sake. i know i will miss evrything in here but i have to take a step forward and start a new. things werent be easy for me as well but as i said i have to do it now or never.

haaayy i know this is a big step but, people around me will understand and will stand by me whatever decision i made and it will be a big help and i will always be grateful. i wont forget eveyrone here in england.. anyways, theres plenty of time to catch up and do all the best we can..

unlimited photo

got this from ate page camera, i just thought that i was kinda pretty here *pagbigyan nyo na* and it brings lots of memory way back last year christmas. its was a happy xmas party exclusively for us filipino's who's working in manor place, its a night to remember. things are different at that time, maybe thats why i got the glow..

work work to survive..

Yesterday was the start of putting my goals into action and if you still remember one of it is getting back to my old self being a workaholic work till i drop, no long offs! so, after my night duty i headed to another nursing home to do the cleaning, i had a little rest the night before i ask the nurse in charge who is ate page if i can sleep after my 4 o'clock round so i can regain some energy and i can use for another 6 hour job. at 8 o'clock i was in a hurry to go home and Thanks to ate Lorna's hubby he pick us from work and i ask him to drop me at the town so i can buy some breakfast at MC do. whew! i had to rush because my time is 8:30 and i arrived 15 minutes late.*sorry*

cleaning the ground floor wasn't bad at all, you just mop, sweep and hoover the floors. the rooms? there's not much furniture's to wipe just side tables and the window sills. still easy! *yabang* and the toilets are not bad as it sounds.(lol) its a piece of cake i say. I think it will be easier for me if i didn't come from another job, i will be more energised and quick.

but anyway, i earned another hours and extra income! yippee!! and its another accomplishment for me.. I'm very happy because the previous weeks are quite difficult for me, I'm thinking of how to earn money so i can get by with my life here, but hey I'm still happy, money is not the basis of happiness for me its the friends that surrounds and the thought that I'm still here. i got 6 more months to enjoy my life here and do the very best i can..

so, long way to go to achieve all my goals, but I've started and I'm a lot happier!!

i hate the place i use to loved..

i have been working in this palace for almost 2 1/2 years now. The first few months was a tough one, i misses home and for the first time im having a real work and its in another country and its quite an odd job, because come to think of it, i study four years to get a degree and now here im a member of british bum cleaning or better known as BBC.(lol) well anyway i passed that months and got comfortable with my present situation. i jus focus my mind that im thankful that i got new sets of friends, a new family and a new home..

new friendships built, strong ones and just civil one. but unfortunately everything has come to an end, one by one people go, they resigned, they get married, they found a new job, management become worse, job become more difficult than it seems, the world that means to me has shattered. oh! i miss the old times guys! maybe one day we all meet again.. thanks for the friendships, the memories and everything that you helped in me..

enough is ENOUGH!

Last night shift was a very horrible one.. i started my day yesterday feeling so lazy and not wanted to work, i was having a serious thought about quiting the job, and yesterday would be my last day. indeed i was right what happened made me decide to finally quit the joa and i had enough of everything from that place.

When i came to work i was feelin the same feelin everytime im coming in that place, so nervous and wanted to melt and let-the-floor-open-up-and eat-me from where i am standing.

INCIDENT 1: the nepali girl called by her pointing finger and asked me to put a hat on, but the way she called me is very rude, i know i was wrong but she shouldnt have done that.

INCIDENT 2: a nepali couple was ordering and i was the one taking their order, and from behind the nepali girl came and she done the ordering *nang-agaw ng eksena* ok fine! and ask me to just get the money and so i did the couple paid with their debit card. and was the order is given they begun to complain that they order for a two drink and i didnt know what happened next because they were talking with their language and to my surprise the nepali girl said that i might not heard it right *hello, kausap ko sumingit ka and then at the end it was my fault?! ok k lng?! and the man paid attention to me saying "u didnt understand me?, now you understand me?" but because the fast food chains live with the motto "costumers always right" your abang lingkod didnt answer back. but at the back of my head. *fuck you!*

and because i was so irritable i couldnt hide my being upset, tears suddenly flow in my chicks and had to walk-out for a while i was so distress and couldnt help self-pitying. i had enough and i dont want anybody to make me feel stupid and uneducated that couldnt understand a simple word. anyway theres another one more, still with the nepali girl.

INCIDENT 3: i was in my till and taking orders again from nowhere, she appeared in my backhelping me to pack orders and suddenly when im about to get the old mans order she pakialam again in taking it and up wrong again and in the end she blame me again, i nearly shout at her but because its not right, i just lower my temper and just carry on thinking that today will be my last day.

the job is very light, just take the orders, get the money and served evryhting right but with pakialamero on the sides, things will be complicated and will just irritates me, even if im beginning to like what im doing i cant take those people anymore. i have a long patience but in just a day she reach the limit!

keeping the faith

this morning i was very lazy to get up, i was planning to cancel my appointment with ate jen, but i was thinking i need to get another job. so i got up and hurriedly took a shower and get dress. the nursing home we went was really amazing, it was far different from the others ive been to, it was huge, spacious and you will feel that youre in a hotel. Its own by an american company and most of its furniture is shipped from america, beautiful place its a home away from home and i feel very welcome by all the staffs, they are nice and the residents as well. ummm its giving me a second thought about going home.. hehe *just kidding mahal

and after that we ate at nando's which is a portugese restaurant, the chicken is very nice, its one of my favourite resto. anyway after we eat we went home now together with mami mers who took her citizenship exam and passed it. *congrats mami! i went to ate mers house to give gali a present i bought in a toy store and i asked ate mers to call the job vacancy i saw last night in the internet, see i was getting desperate in applying work, im thinking of going home the soonest time if i loose my job.hehe!

but honestly i have been thinking it almost evryday, where will i pick myself if that things happened, option no.1: call nanay and ask for ticket fare. option no.2: call ate ethel and ask for two shift while im looking for another job. option no.3: do cleaning and hung up till i get job. oh dear! buhay abroad!!

yesterday i attend a mass and ask for guidance and support, its not that i only went to church everytime i need something, im always talking to him through my prayers but i feel more relieved when im at his house. anyway while i was doing all the interviews and application im thinking how about my application in KFC? but since its been a week before they reply
im already loosing hope about it. so i was surprise that while i was checking my mail i notice that my mobile is blinking(bec. its in a silent mode) its my cousin alfred, he told me that they received my employee no and i can start next week.. yipee :) thank you God!! i feel so relieved.. When God closes the door, He opens the windows..

whats up??

*last week tue i was on night duty, i agreed to do it for ate mers because i knew that it will be nurse page shift as well, it was a very quite night and i really enjoyed it, exept in the morning that i had to wash 4 residents.he,he im so sleepy already, so the following day was spent in bed.

* thurs and fri i was working longday so i didnt had a chance to talk to glenn in fon. fri afternoon was a tough one, i was partnered with the silly girl, i couldnt get her logic. so the following day i was off sick although it was planned but i was really dead tired and knocked out.

* sun was a quite nice day complete staff and maraming panakaw n sandali ng pgtetext.. LOL!

bloopers at work..

work doesnt always to be serious, you need an ice breaker to ease the stress. here are some bloopers at work..

scene 1: one night duty ate lorna and i worked in the same wing. we already finished everything and its time for miryenda.
lorna: halika kn joan, kain n tyo habang mainit init p yung coke..(the coke was tucked under her shoulder) LOL! nilimliman.

scene 2: i pass by in nightingale wing while pulling Mr. A.N's wheelchair, i notice that somebody was picking a clothes from Mr. B's wardrobe and i thought its Mr. A.W' because his sweater lay beside the door of Mr. B's door. so i kept calling Mr,. A.w! Mr. A.W!. and nobody seems to move so i stop and went straigt to the room only to found out that its mami mers and she's preparing MR B's clothes and Mr. AW is answering back in the lounge.. LOL! i mistaken mami as a man and a resident..

scene 3: a new carer came in and for her third day of induction she was parnered with me, as ate benny's says she is my conciensce for the fact that she keeps following me. at supper time i asked her to bring the food in the residents room, i wrote doe=wn in the tissue where she is going only to found out that she went to 104 and left the food insead of room 204. LOL! silly girl, nobodys in the room and all the lights are turned off.

most of all i love working with ate lorna she always make me laugh..

co-workers famous lines..

"hoy ason" -ate mers

"ay shocking!" -ate phage

"basasong" -kuya fhod

"dotaran k talaga" -mami merz

"namumuti n ang bulubol ko"! -benny

"oy anu kmusta na?" *with a smile* -ate lorna

"musta n, bay?" -kuya allan

"langya, napagod ako dun!" -ate jenny

" o bakit di mo ako tinawag" -ate grace

"stupid, idiot"- sini

"have you seen maize?"- sponge bob

" have you done any activities, because you know they ask me -irene