bbc no more..

last wednesday night duty ate mers, told me something that made me really think. While putting the residents in bed, and me wiping the bottom she suddenly said "naku mamimiss mo mg punas ng pwet". quite funny but i just answered her with a smile.

when i was alone cleaning the lounge her words cross my mind and i had a flash back when i was still starting with the job. i was barely a month here in england when i started working as "health care assistant" other refers it as a "british bum cleaning". anyway, like others i had a very memorable first day at work. ate lorna she was then 3 mos pregnant asked me together with the other new lady if we want to serve breakfast or work on the floor. i choose to work on the floor with the thought of "cleaning the floor" as in mopping, floor waxing or etc not knowing that it means assisting the residents in washing and dressing. bad choice isn'it?!(lol) i was partnered with james and we done mrs c. with her i had my first stomach punch and was thinking of quiting the job there and then (lol)

as the days and months pass i learned to cope with my new environment and started to get used with the job and earned the residents and co-workers trust. i was the youngest for three months i was everybody's bunso and little sister but june came 3 more Filipinas came and work and became good friends of mine.

i learned the work pattern and had different time shifts. i was enjoying what i am doing but sometimes it came to a point that you dont want to do the things your used to.. nakakasawa din minsan its been a routine and you want to break it by doing something. you want to try new thinks and have to decide and choose what you think is best.

now im facing a big decision in my life, and as for now im choosing to leave everything behind me, and im quite decided with the steps im going to take. i need to do this for my parents and for my future sake. i know i will miss evrything in here but i have to take a step forward and start a new. things werent be easy for me as well but as i said i have to do it now or never.

haaayy i know this is a big step but, people around me will understand and will stand by me whatever decision i made and it will be a big help and i will always be grateful. i wont forget eveyrone here in england.. anyways, theres plenty of time to catch up and do all the best we can..