Sunday, 11 May 2008

deCided but still cOnfused.. : (

ive been hunted with some thoughts for a few days now and the advice im getting from friends made me more confused..(siggghhh)

because of the things going around my work place im thinking of cutting my stay short (as i said in my last blog) because i dont have any assurance what will happen tom, if im still be having a job or their own law of convinience has changed again and we will be the one who will suffer from it. (long siggghhh again..) im beginning to panic and couldnt work like before. just last night i notice that i can be annoyed easily and can loose patient completely and i hate myself being all that.. so i just walked away and talk to myself that its not fair for them to be affected or be the one n mapagbuntunan ng lahat ng ngyayari..

i asked four friends and i got a four different answer as well that made me totally confused.. haaaayy

personally, i am decided that whatever will happen i will not re-new my visa for so many reasons that some people wouldnt understand, so i woundnt detailed it much. i thought it many times and end up with a same solution.

i just keep in mind that there is life after all of these and this place is not the end of my dreams, but leaving it and ending it will be a new beginning of something great, this is not my land. but this country has thought me many things and i will keep it and be my guidelines with the new journey im going to take

i wish and hope that all the person close to my heart will understand that i have to this for some reason and another. i will take all the memories, laughs, cries and the friendship you offer me..

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