catch me im falling..

my day started really bad, the kangaroo nurse annoyed me and the rest of the jinx follows..

i havent thought that today will changed evrything ive planned for, another judgment today for me, another trial and another unforgetable moments.. the place i used to love is a total dissaster right now, the head was both a horrible cow.. i really dont know how will i express my feelings right now im in a total mess, im so confused and really cant decide what i want at this moment.. but one things for sure my plan is soon to take place, much earlier than expected..

my working hours is again reduced to the mininum and now i dont know what will hapen to me, i was calculating, and realise that im goin to earn only what i need to sustain my stay here. not a very good point of continuing to live here. ad considering that why should i stay longer and continue all these and in the end i will just end up in the same story why dont i cut the story short. these are the thoughts that continuesly playing in my mind. (long sighhhh)

actually after hearing the news i hurriedly run to the computer and check the ticketing website and check the flight availability on july.. i feel so stressed and couldnt express what i really want, i feel so down, why all of these is happening again when im trying to rebuild all the hope that once lost and now for the 2nd time all of it was falling apart again.. again again again.. i was given to see that there is light after the darkness, but now after a small sign of brigthness it became gloomy once more...