Showing posts with label i speak. Show all posts
Showing posts with label i speak. Show all posts

Monday, 24 March 2014

My pregnancy journey pt 2

First trimester

   I was on my 5-6 weeks of pregnancy when we learned about it, but days before that i was unconsciously having first sign of pregnancy, like i want rice each breakfast as in kain kung kain talaga,hehe i always crave for crispy pata that  i eat with so much happiness and kulang n lng maubos ko na :) and for the first time i ate dinuguan in a party, which i don't usually do, i only eat dinuguan if its my mother's cooking, i slept a lot as in a lot ha, after breakfast, before and after lunch.. haha para lng akong baboy i woke up in the afternoon asking for siomai and rice then go back to sleep once more..haha



  On my 6th week I flew to Saudi Arabia with my husband,which means new environment for me. I was having a hard time adjusting with the new habitat, I was experiencing jet lag, i was feeling sad because i am far from my nanay once again and for the first time i will live with my husband in one roof with just the two of us now (which is creepy at first,haha). Everything was new to me. I felt lost for a few days,adjusting with the time, environment, pregnancy, being all alone in our room for hours as the husband goes to work, napapanis ang laway ko sa daldal kong ito biglang mag isa na lang ako (lol) and one more thing that adds to my boredom was we don't have internet connection for half a month :(. 

And in extension I don't know what i want to ingest, i only had 3-4 spoons of  food then ayaw ko na, i will feast upon apple or orange na lang.  i was being picky with the food i want to take in (which is part of pregnancy) nahihiya ako sa asawa ako kasi feeling ko ang arte arte ko,hehe but what can i do my taste buds was acting up :) there are times that i only want fried foods, like hotdog (purefoods) and eggs or corned beef (purefoods) which eventually i find not healthy so i cut it off on my diet, and there are nights that i craved for pizza, and the husband was sweet enough to take home some :)
One of the hardest thing to get over with is missing the taste of pork :( i was craving for it but couldn't do anything, since its was forbidden here. So what i did i only dreamed about about it na lang to satisfy my cravings..hehe

   On the other hand, I only experienced evening sickness which didn't last long though, nasusuka ako n parang wala nmn lalabas, puro laway lang, Kaya di ako masyado nahirapan, sa pagkain lng talaga, there are times my husband didn't know what to cook anymore because i don't eat much, so some of it end up to waste. (sorry Lord) and  the only thing i hate much is the smell of newly cooked rice, ohh I cant stand it i feel nauseous.


   
And Lastly, the one thing that made it more strenuous for us was, I was developing rashes all over my legs :( and we couldn't pin point the cause, it first started when i ate Tuna, so we suspect it was it, my husband put on petroleum jelly and it went down, but then the following day nagpantal pantal ulit, whats more annoying is it sometimes grow in the middle of the night :( it was like that for months, we suspect maybe there's a bed bug so we bought a bug spray and sprayed it all over our bed, the alikabok, so we cleaned the whole room, throw unnecessary things so the dust wont file up,the water from the faucet maybe there's an unwanted chemical or my skin is also adjusting with the weather and the list go on, we were getting paranoid about it, So we consulted my OB and she gave me pills to take, it helped but still it wont go away completely, we tried putting baking soda, baby powder, calamine, fissan powder, and cethaphil for as my bath soap, it all helped but still not completely gone :( 
  After weeks of observation on my food intake,my husband suspects it was the "salt", cause at that time i always eat fruits together with salt, so then i limit my salt intake and as the days pass by the rashes became less and less until December came it was completely gone. :) (praise the Lord!!)


(i wont upload the other pics as it looks awful. hehe)


Well, that's my first trimester story, adjustment adjustment adjustment but with the help of my husband i get over with all of those. So expect a happy 2nd  trimester story..hehe

"Often times God demonstrates His faithfulness in adversity by  providing for us what we need to survive. He does not change our painful circumstances. He sustains us through them. = Charles Stanley

Thursday, 8 May 2008

catch me im falling..

my day started really bad, the kangaroo nurse annoyed me and the rest of the jinx follows..

i havent thought that today will changed evrything ive planned for, another judgment today for me, another trial and another unforgetable moments.. the place i used to love is a total dissaster right now, the head was both a horrible cow.. i really dont know how will i express my feelings right now im in a total mess, im so confused and really cant decide what i want at this moment.. but one things for sure my plan is soon to take place, much earlier than expected..

my working hours is again reduced to the mininum and now i dont know what will hapen to me, i was calculating, and realise that im goin to earn only what i need to sustain my stay here. not a very good point of continuing to live here. ad considering that why should i stay longer and continue all these and in the end i will just end up in the same story why dont i cut the story short. these are the thoughts that continuesly playing in my mind. (long sighhhh)

actually after hearing the news i hurriedly run to the computer and check the ticketing website and check the flight availability on july.. i feel so stressed and couldnt express what i really want, i feel so down, why all of these is happening again when im trying to rebuild all the hope that once lost and now for the 2nd time all of it was falling apart again.. again again again.. i was given to see that there is light after the darkness, but now after a small sign of brigthness it became gloomy once more...

Saturday, 3 May 2008

bbc no more..

last wednesday night duty ate mers, told me something that made me really think. While putting the residents in bed, and me wiping the bottom she suddenly said "naku mamimiss mo mg punas ng pwet". quite funny but i just answered her with a smile.

when i was alone cleaning the lounge her words cross my mind and i had a flash back when i was still starting with the job. i was barely a month here in england when i started working as "health care assistant" other refers it as a "british bum cleaning". anyway, like others i had a very memorable first day at work. ate lorna she was then 3 mos pregnant asked me together with the other new lady if we want to serve breakfast or work on the floor. i choose to work on the floor with the thought of "cleaning the floor" as in mopping, floor waxing or etc not knowing that it means assisting the residents in washing and dressing. bad choice isn'it?!(lol) i was partnered with james and we done mrs c. with her i had my first stomach punch and was thinking of quiting the job there and then (lol)
as the days and months pass i learned to cope with my new environment and started to get used with the job and earned the residents and co-workers trust. i was the youngest for three months i was everybody's bunso and little sister but june came 3 more Filipinas came and work and became good friends of mine.
i learned the work pattern and had different time shifts. i was enjoying what i am doing but sometimes it came to a point that you dont want to do the things your used to.. nakakasawa din minsan its been a routine and you want to break it by doing something. you want to try new thinks and have to decide and choose what you think is best.
now im facing a big decision in my life, and as for now im choosing to leave everything behind me, and im quite decided with the steps im going to take. i need to do this for my parents and for my future sake. i know i will miss evrything in here but i have to take a step forward and start a new. things werent be easy for me as well but as i said i have to do it now or never.
haaayy i know this is a big step but, people around me will understand and will stand by me whatever decision i made and it will be a big help and i will always be grateful. i wont forget eveyrone here in england.. anyways, theres plenty of time to catch up and do all the best we can..

Sunday, 27 April 2008

ingGit K laNg..


the other day somebody relay on me that a so-called friend tells that "im MagAstos, Thats y I cOuldNt save" ... oh i see!! so here i can tell them.. "im spending my own earnings and at least i dont have to borrow just to buy what i want".. maybe they just envy me and couldnt say anything good..

these is what with others, they tend to say anything about others people but when they heard somebody said anything about them, theyre too sensitive to accept it.. so better to keep your mouth shut so you wont cause any trouble and not be in trouble as well..

my lifestyle is just simple and i just buy what i can afford and at least with my small salary i still can save even a little.. i spend most of my money now with foods and fon cards.. nothing else cause as much as possible i want to save and go else where before i finally go home for good..

so with the big mouths, make it smaller and think a hundred times before you open it..

Saturday, 26 April 2008

bReaKing uP

how does it feel to break up with somebody after years of being together?.. yeah, its painful and you still wish that there still hope and kept wondering if you could bring back the old times..


personally im a bit liberated as glenn tells me when it comes to that, when something wrong happened between the two of us, i do my part in saving it and make up for the lost time, in some situation i lower my pride but not to the extent of begging, for me kasi when i knew na ive done my part and nothing happened i just let it go.. i should respect myself first and still leave a litle love for myself.. and letting go doest mean na you stop loving the person its just you need to rebuild your life back, pick up the pieces and return your dignity that you lost along the way fighting for the man who once own your heart..


but i know its hard but you need to move on and be open to what comes ahead, dont completely shut your heart, it just needs sometime to heal.. para one day when you see each other again, youre alright na and you can face him with lots of confidence and not with bitterness..

Saturday, 19 April 2008

glenn_joan

*when and where did you first meet?
-as friends, in SM Mla, in front of national bookstore and he's late.

*how about in being a couple?
-same venue, but we met 7 days after we become a couple.

*when did you become an item?
-october 2 2002

*how long you've been together?
-5 years 6 months 2 weeks and 3 days

*are you happy?
-very much, i cant ask for someone else.

*any plans of tying the knot?
-it has been talk a few times but no definite or solid plan yet, but we're considering 2010.

*where is He now?
-he's currently working in riyadh as aircraft mechanic.

*miss him?
-if i only could pull the time.

*how would you describe Him?
-glenn is a listener, loner and emotional, He's not showy so sometimes you'll be doubtfull about him but when he tell you something its very intense and you'll just feel all the love inside him.
he got so many plans and he's working hard for that.

*how about you, how would you describe yourself?
-sometimes im more of a pessimistic than optimistic. im on my lowest point at this time but im trying to rebuild my life back, i know im on a situation but i also know im still safe because i still can talk about it, i have this grudges against some persons that i consider them as a friend. so many things to say but i know one of this day ill be fine.

*are you content about your life as a whole?
-definitely i am, we cannot avoid some circumstances but i am happy and perfectly fine in what is happening with me right now. im happy that im experiencing all of this and it has a lot to do with who i am now and with my perception in life. im thakfull for all the friends and loveones who supported me.

*any regrets?
-nope. evrything happened for some reason or another and God is with us all the way.

*anything you want to say to your partner?
-thanks for all the advice, help and for simply being there.. i cannot get through with all of these without your loving words and patience in listening with me.. stay the same and ill see you soon! ako lng mahal mo!! mwaaahh love you much!

Thursday, 10 April 2008

missin home..

miss my dad! everytime i called him or texted him, he always tell me just to go home, he miss me and how much he loves me.. but this year ill be home when he celebrates his b-day along with my niece aj.

miss my mom as well and my my makukulit n pamangkins! ill be seeing you soon guys! love you much!

Monday, 7 April 2008

i hate the place i use to loved..

i have been working in this palace for almost 2 1/2 years now. The first few months was a tough one, i misses home and for the first time im having a real work and its in another country and its quite an odd job, because come to think of it, i study four years to get a degree and now here im a member of british bum cleaning or better known as BBC.(lol) well anyway i passed that months and got comfortable with my present situation. i jus focus my mind that im thankful that i got new sets of friends, a new family and a new home..









new friendships built, strong ones and just civil one. but unfortunately everything has come to an end, one by one people go, they resigned, they get married, they found a new job, management become worse, job become more difficult than it seems, the world that means to me has shattered. oh! i miss the old times guys! maybe one day we all meet again.. thanks for the friendships, the memories and everything that you helped in me..

Friday, 4 April 2008

45 things about me

1. Do you like cheese?
♥♥ a little.. in the omelet and sa burger

2. Have you ever smoked?
♥♥ just a try, but it doesnt suit my personality.

3. are you a chainsmoker/changesmoker?
♥♥ n/a

4. Your favorite song(s)?
♥♥ amazed by lonestar

5. Do you get nervous before doctor appointments?
♥♥ not really

6. What do you think of hotdogs?
♥♥ juicylicious!

7. Favorite Christmas song?
♥♥ give love on christmas day! and pasko n sinta ko. its been 2 xmas that glenn and i are not together.

8. What do you prefer to drink inthe morning.
♥♥ coffee or milo

9. Can you do push ups?
♥♥ nope!

10. Favorite super-hero?
♥♥ Spiderman

11. What's your favorite piece ofjewelry?
♥♥ watch, i feel beautiful everytime im wearing one

12. Favorite hobby?
♥♥ internet, dvd movies

13. Secret weapon to get the oppositesex?
♥♥ my smile *i guess

14. blank!
♥♥ web break..

15. What's one trait you hate aboutyourself?
♥♥ cry baby and magastos!

16. Middle Name?
♥♥ Lar*n

17. Name 3 thoughts at this exactmoment.
♥♥ 1)im so full!
2)im not well, my throat is hurting!
3)should i come to school tom?

18. Name 3 things you bought yesterday?
♥♥ 1)nothing. i got up late and i work in the afternoon.

19. Name 3 drinks you regularly drink?-
♥♥ coffee/milo ♥♥ water ♥♥ diet coke

20. Current worry right now?
♥♥ i cant come to school tom. im not well

21. Current hate?
♥♥ ung intrimitidang nepali gurl sa KFC

22. Favorite place?
♥♥ aside from my bed, london bridge!

23. How will you bring in the New Year?
♥♥ with a bang and next year i'll be spending it with my whole family *so excited!

24. Where would you like to go?
♥♥ Paris, France

25. Name three people who will completeyour day?
♥♥ 1.) Glenn 2.) nay & tay 3.) friends and kids

26. Do you own doll shoes?
♥♥ yes! i use at work

27. What color of shirt are youwearing?
♥♥ pale yellow

29. Can you whistle?
♥♥ yap like a man if you want

30. Favorite color/s?
♥♥ pink,blue, white and green

31. Would you like to be a pirate?
♥♥ if theres a chance why not, for a change ill try some thinkg unusual

32. What songs do you sing in the shower room?
♥♥ it differs, depends on my current mood

33. Favorite girl's name?
♥♥ aside from my name..alegra

34. Favorite boy's name?
♥♥ aside from glenn, mark

35. What's in your pocket right now?
♥♥ im on my pyjamas so, i dont have a pocket, but usually my rosary

36. Last thing that made you laugh?
♥♥ ate lorna.. i love her!

37. best bed sheets as a child?
♥♥ snoopy!

38. Worst injury you've ever had?
♥♥ i got a long abrasions in my R knee till my feet, its a fall from the stairs

39. Do you love where you live?
♥♥ most of the time yes..

40. How many computers do you have inthe house?
♥♥ a laptop

41. Who is your loudest friend?
♥♥ ate may! (lol) she'll tell you what she wants as long as she knows shes right.

42. How many dogs do you have?
♥♥ troodon and kids and tsutsu

43. Does someone have a crush on you?
♥♥ i dont know really, im not interested

45. What is your favorite book?
♥♥ the notebook, the wedding and geisha

enough is ENOUGH!

Last night shift was a very horrible one.. i started my day yesterday feeling so lazy and not wanted to work, i was having a serious thought about quiting the job, and yesterday would be my last day. indeed i was right what happened made me decide to finally quit the joa and i had enough of everything from that place.
When i came to work i was feelin the same feelin everytime im coming in that place, so nervous and wanted to melt and let-the-floor-open-up-and eat-me from where i am standing.
INCIDENT 1: the nepali girl called by her pointing finger and asked me to put a hat on, but the way she called me is very rude, i know i was wrong but she shouldnt have done that.
INCIDENT 2: a nepali couple was ordering and i was the one taking their order, and from behind the nepali girl came and she done the ordering *nang-agaw ng eksena* ok fine! and ask me to just get the money and so i did the couple paid with their debit card. and was the order is given they begun to complain that they order for a two drink and i didnt know what happened next because they were talking with their language and to my surprise the nepali girl said that i might not heard it right *hello, kausap ko sumingit ka and then at the end it was my fault?! ok k lng?! and the man paid attention to me saying "u didnt understand me?, now you understand me?" but because the fast food chains live with the motto "costumers always right" your abang lingkod didnt answer back. but at the back of my head. *fuck you!*
and because i was so irritable i couldnt hide my being upset, tears suddenly flow in my chicks and had to walk-out for a while i was so distress and couldnt help self-pitying. i had enough and i dont want anybody to make me feel stupid and uneducated that couldnt understand a simple word. anyway theres another one more, still with the nepali girl.
INCIDENT 3: i was in my till and taking orders again from nowhere, she appeared in my backhelping me to pack orders and suddenly when im about to get the old mans order she pakialam again in taking it and up wrong again and in the end she blame me again, i nearly shout at her but because its not right, i just lower my temper and just carry on thinking that today will be my last day.
the job is very light, just take the orders, get the money and served evryhting right but with pakialamero on the sides, things will be complicated and will just irritates me, even if im beginning to like what im doing i cant take those people anymore. i have a long patience but in just a day she reach the limit!

Wednesday, 2 April 2008

sharing my thoughts.

it was my school day yesterday and as usual, im very lazy to get up and prepare.. i only come once a week and im still very lazy to go, maybe because of the travel and the ticket price (lol) anyway, its quite alright to go in london once in a while, and see the shops and go window shopping.. (hangang window shopping n lng LOL) and this past few weeks im enjoying evry minute of it coz im only staying in the country for the next 7 months or less.. oohh sad but its evrybody's decision.. everybody i mean, nay and dadi, my bro's, aunts, grandma and my glenn, well i agreed with them and come to think of it life is too short to be away from them so id better do right thing now.. take care of them and find an accesible job or just work around asia (Lol). coz unlike here, i have to earn lots of money to have a vacation, work 60 hrs/week and fly 18 hours home, so tiring! as if just in asia its like im just around the corner, they can easily visit me or i can go home in less than half a day.. get my point? anyway its just one of my option and another one is glenns proposal, wait for a year, get married and live together where he is working.. not finalise yet but definitely its a plan and a big step that needs a lot of thinking..
i can say that i had enough with the kind of life im living here, i mean people in my original work place are getting mean, unkind and unfair, the work is getting heavier, the pay is not enough. so what the point of staying, i know you will say get another job move to another place, the answer no. n-O. although i lessen my hour in that place and i had two other jobs but then again, if im in the Philippines i dont have to do all this things, i can get a job with a decent pay, get near with my family, and dont have to suffer every month thinking of all the things. im not happy anymore to tell you. ok! ok! im weak but im just being true to myself..
however if i get another job in another country and with a different status, i mean why not. because here with the student visa im holding its very hard for me. i need to go to school, take exams, pay tuition fee's, train fare's and etc.

anyway, i really dont know what i want now. Therefor ill stay here till my visa ends and figure it out.

-end of story!

Monday, 3 March 2008

off sick..

my kuya fhod, having his signature hot chocolate @ starbucks.


after dinner @ chinese restaurant *eat all you can* treat from ate phage and kuya fhod. notice my hair, its very windy and freezing cold.





that little girl is galiye, ate mers and kuya suzer only princess, she's very pretty and sweet.. i love her!






behind me is the ferry going to isle of wight, one of my favourite place in the u.k. there's another kind of ferry which is called fast cat, its carries only people unlike that one which you can bring your car to tour the island.





with my friend ate mercy and little galiye.


we went last 29/02/08. the weather was fair, but in the afternoon the rain finally fall unto our heads. we're with ate phage and her hubby kuya fhod, but ate phage dont want her picture taken, because she been on the place for many times and took picture hundred times already. LOL! we done a little bit of shopping, we took advantage of the great discount in some signature shops, i bought my aunt rose a gift and venice as well as her mom is coming home for her 2nd b-day. its a well rest day and a fun afternoon with friends.


p.s. i had to lie at work just to be with them..LOL anyway its worth it..


Tuesday, 15 January 2008

wOrk, woRk, woRk!!

me in my nursing home uniform complete yan with badge ha!

this was taken after we built the x mas tree at the nightingale conservatory, ganda noh! sosyal tingnan yung chair hindi halatang mapanghe..LOL!..


this one with bob's birthday cake, courtesy of his mom, it was heavy thats why it needs two people to hold, pero picture muna kami, as if its ours birthday.. you can see everybody is smiling!!LOL!


after a day of work, im tired and already worn out so i had to lay down a bit in our kitchen before having my supper.. im very lazy noh, i havent taken out my jackets.. LOL!

Monday, 14 January 2008

its confirmed!!

its confirmed, my bb is bound to riyadh at the end of the month (31/1/08 to be exact), its sad but im excited for him as well, because finally he's achieving his dream and this will be a big turning point of his life.. but thank God we will see each other before he finally left the Philippines.. i wonder where we going?! c".?

anyway, GOOD LUCK GLENN, i wish you all the sucess!