sharing my thoughts.

it was my school day yesterday and as usual, im very lazy to get up and prepare.. i only come once a week and im still very lazy to go, maybe because of the travel and the ticket price (lol) anyway, its quite alright to go in london once in a while, and see the shops and go window shopping.. (hangang window shopping n lng LOL) and this past few weeks im enjoying evry minute of it coz im only staying in the country for the next 7 months or less.. oohh sad but its evrybody's decision.. everybody i mean, nay and dadi, my bro's, aunts, grandma and my glenn, well i agreed with them and come to think of it life is too short to be away from them so id better do right thing now.. take care of them and find an accesible job or just work around asia (Lol). coz unlike here, i have to earn lots of money to have a vacation, work 60 hrs/week and fly 18 hours home, so tiring! as if just in asia its like im just around the corner, they can easily visit me or i can go home in less than half a day.. get my point? anyway its just one of my option and another one is glenns proposal, wait for a year, get married and live together where he is working.. not finalise yet but definitely its a plan and a big step that needs a lot of thinking..

i can say that i had enough with the kind of life im living here, i mean people in my original work place are getting mean, unkind and unfair, the work is getting heavier, the pay is not enough. so what the point of staying, i know you will say get another job move to another place, the answer no. n-O. although i lessen my hour in that place and i had two other jobs but then again, if im in the Philippines i dont have to do all this things, i can get a job with a decent pay, get near with my family, and dont have to suffer every month thinking of all the things. im not happy anymore to tell you. ok! ok! im weak but im just being true to myself..

however if i get another job in another country and with a different status, i mean why not. because here with the student visa im holding its very hard for me. i need to go to school, take exams, pay tuition fee's, train fare's and etc.

anyway, i really dont know what i want now. Therefor ill stay here till my visa ends and figure it out.

-end of story!