7th year aNNiversary

What a lovely surprise from my bhe.. I was speechless and soo touch! :,), It took seven years for me to received something like this.. hahaha :))

I still remember the day when I finally said YES to my bhe.. (just a recap) the night before He said that He sent me a letter, and asked me to calm down for what i was gonna read the following day, Its very intriguing and at the same time I was excited, I had that night a sleepless one. The following day I hurriedly went to school to check for my email, still sleepless and review less for my exam, i allotted my remaining 10 mins before my first class in checking my mail..

too bad i cant find the copy :( i just found this one, my reply to his email.. :) haaayyy sarap mg reminisce :) kakiligkilig :))

hi po,. eto wala lang kailangan ko kcing maghanap yung sa paper works ko kya, binasa ko n yung mail mo.. anu ba yun! magdamag n nga tyong mag-ka-txt e marami p tyong mail...ok lng masaya namn e.. well ayun last nyt! hayaan mo n yunwala nnamn cgurong magawa yung mga yun.. ewan ko b kung bakt pti cia sumasama na sa mga ganun., hay kung- cnu-cno ng nkk-impluwensya sa mokong n iyon.. sori kwentuhan p daw kita, dti kc matino yon e..nging problematic dis past few months., yun lang.. yun kinukwento lng s akin nung cousin nya.. he!! hayaan mo n iyon dati p iyon e my knya knya n kming priorities ngaun,, tpos n yung story namin!! my iba n akong bubuuing story..pero sna lang dis tym d n mag-fail,, kc ang hirap!!... hayy pasencia n po sa iyo ko n nkwento yung sama ng loob ko kagabi.. and thank you din kc nakinig k..dmo me iniwan.. thanks s concern!! buti di k p ngsswang mkinig sa akin noh.. ang drama drama ng buhay ko... katulad ng text mo knina.. nabitin k ba dun sa text kagabi.. SECRET pb??? wala lng ewan ko... ang gulo ko talaga noh.. cguro nga bcoz im learning to appreciate you more n more,. nd maybe bcoz.. next e-mail na lng po,, he,he,he! bitin ba?.. well ok namn we start as frends and became Best of Frends i think you have Proven yourself n.. well ok! we could be MORE THAN FRENDS n.. (10/2/02)but can we kip it as a secret for a while wla lang d namn me showbiz e.. basta jaz the two of us lng.. ok po!! o masaya kb? Promise not to tell anyone muna ha,...Thnks!! mis col mo ako ng tatlong beses pagnbasa mo n ito ok!!! thanks thanks.... take care always!! *jOan*

finding myself

I must say its not working.. it is really not working.. :(

Its almost everyday that i get irritated and annoyed even on a very small things, i like details, i like stories, i like to know everything, I know it is impossible but i like to know every single thing.. oh God! what is happening to me.. Is this the result of me being traumatized on what happened before?! I cant stop thinking, I cant stop suspecting, I cant stop myself from loving you eitheir.. ARGG! x-( what have you done to me..

Maybe we shoudnt have tried again, Maybe we should have give ourselves time to think and analyze every single thing and Maybe we should learn now how to live each day without each other. But how?! Im adicted to you, I check my messenger every morning my emails my FS messages, My FB wall. ARRG x-(

Now, I have to learn to live each day without u, any of u.. I know this is hard but how can i be the same old me towards you if i didnt do this or even try. I hurt you each day, I hurt myself for making myself angry each time i talked to you, I making a whole mess in both of our lives. I make your day not liveable, i ruin each day, each night..

I will just have to this, not later but now.. So, when the day we meet again Ill be the same person you love from the very first day you laid your eyes on..

Till, we meet again.. Im off to a quest in finding myself..

happy 6th year anniversary mahalko!!..

yipee!! can you believe inspite of the distance and time difference we're still together not physically but the love that blossomed 6 years ago are still alive and getting stronger each passing day..

In all honesty, at first I didnt see that this relationship will last this long, we are so much different, he's so quite, im talkative, he show his love with action and me I was very vocal about it and so on.. We're opposites in so many ways but Maybe and i believed that's the reason why we get along well.

I have learned and still learning so much more with this relationship each day or week, I keep on discovering new things about him that make me wanna be with him the sooner its possible.(but impossible) This relationship also help me to discover things about myself, the things I can do and things that I should try and so on. It helps me to see life and myself in a very different aspect, different from what I used to be. I didnt changed for Him to love me more or based on what He wants but I changed to makes things work out and for the better.

My beh, keeps me going.. He never loses faith in me inspite of all the trials we've been thru, He's my strenght, my weakness and the answer to my questions. We have a share of our own ups and downs but we still prove to the world that nothing can come between our love. I have nothing to say about him but all Praises.

On our 6th year anniversary Mahalko, I can only say that you have proved me wrong for not believing in this relationship at first. I love you so much and ill see you soon.. (soooooonnnn please!)

He keeps me going

Another entry for my beh..

ayy naku I dont know what to do without Him..

Everyday His text messages lights up my day kahit sometimes its the same messages i get, i dont care kasi i know its true. hehe! And sometimes there are unexpected friendster message that really lifts me up, especially sometimes when I came from work i was so tired and when i opened my email i will be surprise to see that there's a message from him, it will erase all the exhaustion im feeling and draw a smile in my face. sarap ng feeling di ba.. (kinikilig)

And these days are dating place is our web cams, thanks for the technology we're able to see each other anytime of the day and any day of the week. minsan kahit wala n kaming masabi basta, makita o magtitigan n lng kami sa web cam ok na. pwede na! tangal na uli ang pagod at ang puyat.

His also my friend, bestfriend and big brother. He plays many roles in my life and if I need to confide some things with my brother He will act one. If i need friend who will not judge me, he will be one. o db sarap maging bf si beh.. madaming pakinabang..LOL

He's my inspiration and He keeps me going what ever life brings me.. He never fails to cheer me up! love youmuch beh

missin my beh

Its been 5 months now since I last saw Glenn, It was two days before His flight to KSA. it was just a simple goodbye. That day, we went for a walk, bougth goto for our breakfast and chat for a litte while. He went to teir home to take a bath and i fell asleep waiting for Him., after an hour or so He came back with his bag. He just woke me up, plant a kiss in my fore head and give me tight hug as he said goodbye and thats it. It was the last time I saw him in person. I didnt come to drop Him at the airport, as I knew it will just be difficult for both of us.

Thank god after three months in KSA He already got his own laptop so every now and then we get to see each other via web cam. and during free time or when i really really miss Him na i will call him and sometimes it will be a direct call, which means It will charge me big time! haaayy pag inlove k nga naman noh!

im coming home in three months time, naiinip n nga ako e, sometimes time seems to pass by so slow. But my beh is not so sure if He could have the same vacation month as it was a bit difficult to ask for it. but anyway I'll be staying in the Philipppines for good so I'll just be there anytime He could go for a vacation. haayy kakainip sana bukas n yun! :)

siya at kami..

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our love story

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c glentot ko!

this picture was taken when i went home sa pinas, sa Sm san Lazaro, while we are waiting for mami mers sister, i think we took a twentyish pic before she came, but i wont post all of it here (lol), and while waiting we also plan our quick get away for the next day.

that day was very memorable, so many things had happen, so many laughs and lots of plan changing.. aand for the first time again, i saw Glen na malungkot, natakot and excited.. o db as in mixed emotion sya.. hehe.. nakakatuwa, i really miss the old him. Him, two years way back before i went here in the UK. eventhough we really dont spend much time together, only weekends or sometimes hindi p nga due to some family occsions but he will definitely find time to see me during the weekdays..Sweet! there are times na He will visit me sa shop or he will text me that he's coming and ill meet him at the nearest mall.. ayun, ganun ganun lang its becoz His also busy working and me doing some stuff or im staying in Laguna..

but we're both thankful na we dont see each other much, otherwise naku, away cguro kmi ng away..hehe natural lng nman pero kc di ba nakkasawa din at least if di kmi nmgkita for 5-7 days we really miss each other and we wouldnt dare to fight or even argue di ba..

He's always been very patient with me, He been through a lot with me and im to handful to handle for Him.. hehe.. kahit makulit na ako, he will just keep quite until i stop and sya nman magagalit..hehe. i remember one time nghabulan p kmi sa Sm makati to mrt to lrt and end up sa Tayuman.. i dont remember na wat really happened..hehe.. well sorry mahal.. =)

haayy,how i miss him.. cant weyt to see him again.. till next tym panget!

pooh missing her tigger

glenn post this pictures today, this was taken t his work..

its nice to see him happy in what He is doing, and i couldnt help but to feel proud for him, he been dreaming of this eversince he started working back home, he got big dreams, thats why when he receive the news that his application was approved, he couldnt hode his happiness, it was a mix emotion for him, he's worrying that i may not see him before he go (because his flight schedule was in time for my vacation, good thing it was moved) but God's willing n mag abot p kmi and spend 1 1/2 week together, its was an amazing week, we couldnt get enough of each other, being always there is enough eventhough i kept sleeping ang He was doing all the chores (poor bb) as in, cooking, waking me up, planning my scheds, puttig me to sleep, buying my breakfast,etc.. he makes my vaction worth it.. and now, we plan to go home at the same mo.(cross finger) i really pray that it will push through, but anyway im just in the philippines waiting for him, while doing my things..

bb, you take care always.. and i love you much..

glenn_joan

*when and where did you first meet?
-as friends, in SM Mla, in front of national bookstore and he's late.

*how about in being a couple?
-same venue, but we met 7 days after we become a couple.

*when did you become an item?
-october 2 2002

*how long you've been together?
-5 years 6 months 2 weeks and 3 days

*are you happy?
-very much, i cant ask for someone else.

*any plans of tying the knot?
-it has been talk a few times but no definite or solid plan yet, but we're considering 2010.

*where is He now?
-he's currently working in riyadh as aircraft mechanic.

*miss him?
-if i only could pull the time.

*how would you describe Him?
-glenn is a listener, loner and emotional, He's not showy so sometimes you'll be doubtfull about him but when he tell you something its very intense and you'll just feel all the love inside him.
he got so many plans and he's working hard for that.

*how about you, how would you describe yourself?
-sometimes im more of a pessimistic than optimistic. im on my lowest point at this time but im trying to rebuild my life back, i know im on a situation but i also know im still safe because i still can talk about it, i have this grudges against some persons that i consider them as a friend. so many things to say but i know one of this day ill be fine.

*are you content about your life as a whole?
-definitely i am, we cannot avoid some circumstances but i am happy and perfectly fine in what is happening with me right now. im happy that im experiencing all of this and it has a lot to do with who i am now and with my perception in life. im thakfull for all the friends and loveones who supported me.

*any regrets?
-nope. evrything happened for some reason or another and God is with us all the way.

*anything you want to say to your partner?
-thanks for all the advice, help and for simply being there.. i cannot get through with all of these without your loving words and patience in listening with me.. stay the same and ill see you soon! ako lng mahal mo!! mwaaahh love you much!

confuse..

my heart is cying
my heart is longing
my heart wants something

i tried to explain
but still you complain

i dont know what to say
i show my cards and lay
i will stay
but please dont play

i love you
i hate you
i miss you

boring but very much loving..

last night i called glenn before he went to sleep, and as usual you can hear his boring voice at the other end. (lol) because at that time of the day he usaully had his eyes closed but since he is on his off duty tom i insist to call him even if its already late for him *imagine 10 o'clock is already late for him, he now asleep at 9 Pm* because most of them are working almost everyday so they really end each day that early.

anyway, i was a bit irritated when his voice is like that very low and sleepy, i feel that he didnt want to talk to me anymore and wanted to hang up.he,he i never get use to it i wanted him to talk to me in his very lively and high spirited voice rather than in his inactive voice.. when my phone card run out i was very sad and wanted to talk to him more but i dont have a reserve one, so i just texted hi that i dont have a card and he can go to sleep now. you know what he said??

"dont worry mahal, kahit boring akong kausap mahal n mahal kita"

korni no, pero i believe that! hehe, He always made me smile eventhough how cross i am..

i love my bb much!

cute noh! (lol)

very playful

He's a Great Boyfriend

You guy definitely loves you and knows how to treat you right. You have a five star boyfriend - so make sure you treat him right too!

Is He a Good Boyfriend?

honestly Glenn is the best, very sweet, caring and He takes good care of me! LOVEYOU MUCH Darling! (wala lang sa hitsura pero im lucky to have him!)

sooo inlove!

first night back home, so happy to see my glenn.

january 24, went to tagaytay for a short vacation together before parting ways again. soo happy!

i know this is very late to blog but tonight, i feel im so inlove and cant wait to see my bb again, 7 months more to go before we'll see each other again. and i feel so bored already waiting for that to come.

anyway, i was very happy that even for a short time weve spent quality time together before he left for saudi, yes he left when im having my vacation, but im still happy, it better than never at all. eventhough we had problems in the past the magic was still there and everything vanish, we didnt talk any of that, as if nothing happened, we're just both happy that we're back in each others arm again. and its a very amzing feelin! i cant explain and if only i could stop the time and just be with him. haaayy but life has to move on and time will come that we wont need to seperate again.. love you mahal.. cant wait to see you again! mwahhh

wife material?

my bb texted me this "will you take care of me bb?" and i quickly replied yes y not. then he texted me back, "i just want toknow if you'll be a good wife who will be there to accomplish your role" i was surprised from what he said so i replied. "ahh, panu tinte test yun?" and until now he havent replied so i assume he already fell asleep. well anyway it leaves a question in my mind, will i be a good wife someday? whats the basis for that? is there a course good wife 101..as far as i know myself, i can cook but not as good as my mom or your mom is but at least im trying, i can do household chores, laundry, ironing (but not a pile of clothes please)

my nanay taught a lot of things when i was still small, maybe thats a mothers task to open their little girls eyes for what is ahead. and i grew up doing everything at home, we didnt have any helpers or anyone to help so practically i know how to run a household. (and i dont want anybody, kept telling me what to do or anything, it gets me irritated)

so, will i be a good wife?, i think so, maybe. can we try and i'll just quit if icant do what is expected? LOL as if pwede noh.. well as far as im concern, i always do my best and as long im with my loveones nothing is impossible..

love story.

I posted another copy of this in Friendster last 27/02/08, and i like to share it here in blogspot.

1. Where did you meet?
- he is my bro's friend, and a
schoolmate way back in high school

2. What was the first thought that
went through your head?
- uy crush ko yun!

3. Do you remember what he/she was
wearing?
- i dont know, i didnt pay attention kc naman im always nervous evrytime i saw him. nanginginig ung knee ko.

4. When was the first time you kissed
this person?
- i think 2 weeks after we become an
item.

5. How did he/she ask you out?
- by phone, and he ask me to go out with him in
glorieta to watch the "Pooh Friendship
Day"

6. Where did you go for your first
date?
- we watch this movie and it was its
first day of showing, so they wer
giving hallmark cards, so at that moment
we wrote amessage for each other.

7. How long did you know this person
before you started dating?
- we only knew each other by name but not
personally. after two years of knowing each
other before he asked me to go out.

8. Has this person ever proposed to
you?
- nope, we talked about it but not to
serious i guess, but we got plans.

9. Do you and this person have kids
together?
- not yet.

10. Have you ever broken the law with
this person?
- who's law? mom and dad??

11. When was the first time you
realized that you loved this person?
- a month after we've been together.
he knows it naman.

12. Do you get along with his family?
- i think so. in fairness they're so
nice.

13. Do you trust this person?
- with all my life.

14. Do you see your partner in your
future?
- we hoped?!

15. Whats the most expensive thing
this person has given you?
- lots e, i dont ask for the price,
its the thought that counts.

16. What is one thing he/she does that
gets on your nerves?
- whenever he forgots to text me..
LOL! it'll be a big fight talaga..

17. What is the thing you do that gets
on his/her nerves?
- my childishness.. he hates it!

18. Where do you see each other in 15
years from now?
- living together in one place and
taking care of each other and the kids
(probably 3)

19.Will this person repost this?
- no! he dont have computer at the
moment, and even if he have , he wont,
this is not his things.

20. How much do you love him/her?
- i trust my future in him. ill be
there wherever he wants me to.

whats in my boyfriends name?

What Glenn Joseph Means

You are deeply philosophical and thoughtful. You tend to analyze every aspect of your life. You are intuitive, brilliant, and quite introverted. You value your time alone. Often times, you are grumpy with other people. You don't appreciate them trying to interfere in your affairs. You are relaxed, chill, and very likely to go with the flow. You are light hearted and accepting. You don't get worked up easily. Well adjusted and incredibly happy, many people wonder what your secret to life is. You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone. You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together. At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together. You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people. You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts. You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals. You are fair, honest, and logical. You are a natural leader, and people respect you. You never give up, and you will succeed... even if it takes you a hundred tries. You are rational enough to see every part of a problem. You are great at giving other people advice. You are well rounded, with a complete perspective on life. You are solid and dependable. You are loyal, and people can count on you. At times, you can be a bit too serious. You tend to put too much pressure on yourself. You are the total package - suave, sexy, smart, and strong. You have the whole world under your spell, and you can influence almost everyone you know. You don't always resist your urges to crush the weak. Just remember, they don't have as much going for them as you do. You are influential and persuasive. You tend to have a lot of power over people. Generally, you use your powers for good. You excel at solving other people's problems. Occasionally, you do get a little selfish and persuade people to do things that are only in your interest. You are truly an original person. You have amazing ideas, and the power to carry them out. Success comes rather easily for you... especially in business and academia. Some people find you to be selfish and a bit overbearing. You're a strong person.

What's Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

its confirmed!!

its confirmed, my bb is bound to riyadh at the end of the month (31/1/08 to be exact), its sad but im excited for him as well, because finally he's achieving his dream and this will be a big turning point of his life.. but thank God we will see each other before he finally left the Philippines.. i wonder where we going?! c".?

anyway, GOOD LUCK GLENN, i wish you all the sucess!

my life, my love , my everything

Meet my boyfriend/fiance.. Mr. Glenn B. Calderon, 25, comes from a respectable family, graduate of a four year course, with a stable job, not bad salary and has a small savings just enough to finance his dream. hehe!!

Our love story is quite unusual, i can say it started when we were in high school, admit it or not both of us got a special place in each heart that just need to bloom and discover it in right time and in right place. time flies and we both got busy in each career, ive been through to a failed relationship and him in a crush crush lang, (torpe kc), when he finally got the courage to contact me, we were already on our second year in college and i just get back with my old bf, (pero kahit na, kinikilig p arin ako! lol) we text each other constantly and had burning lines of fon calls as in till 2am, wala lang tsikahn ng kahit anu.. but it got to an end, we both got busy for a year and thanks to me being makulit, i text him again and got back to our old habit and one time we got a bet that if i pass my exam he will treat me, and i won, so the next weekend he brought me to "the pooh friendship day" (hehe, pambata) and he gave me a winnie the pooh pillow (galing sa diskarte, hinui ako sa aking childish part! lol). but his not a very gentleman though he let me go home alone :(

After that, we emailed each other constantly, were not satisfied in just text or call, and you know what he only told me what he truly felt for me in an email, it was night of october first that he texted me that he sent me an email and he said something that made me nervous so the following day, i rush to scholl to check my email and found out that he told me that theres something in him.... just read his email, here it is..

**hows ur day?! sna nmn ok lng..... he!he! nkita ko n ung smiley, kc nung last tym hinhnap ko un,, nsa "greetings" ung page kya pla wla!!!
Nkkasar tlga ung prof. s psych. wla kwenta magturo, ptay lagi ung klase pg oras nya... buti p c randy pinkkinggan nung mga clasm8s nmin cia hnd buti nung exms nmin open buk... pro bwal pgnhuli k!!!!!
alm mo, d last tym i told u dat ur special hnd ko alm kung bkt... pro nw alm ko n!!!!! UR SPECIAL BEC. DER IS LOVE IN ME DAT I WANT TO SHARE W/ U......i dont expect nmn anything from u,,, at least lng u knw dat i love u .... tgal din me nag-isip if i will say dis 2u kc bka mgulohan k lng, pro i decided 2... bka po mklimutan ko pg d ko sinbi!! he!he!
hope u will nt change ur treatment 2 me, bka kc mhiya kn mgapproach skin eh, i will always be ur friend till d end.... cge po, mhba n 2, next tym n lng ulit.... nakita mo n b ung card?!?? have a nice day everyday and ingat po plgi!!!!!

and i replied...

hi po,. eto wala lang kailangan ko kcing maghanap yung sa paper works ko kya, binasa ko n yung mail mo.. anu ba yun! magdamag n nga tyong mag-ka-txt e marami p tyong mail...ok lng masaya namn e.. well ayun last nyt! hayaan mo n yunwala nnamn cgurong magawa yung mga yun.. ewan ko b kung bakt pti cia sumasama na sa mga ganun., hay kung- cnu-cno ng nkk-impluwensya sa mokong n iyon.. sori kwentuhan p daw kita, dti kc matino yon e..nging problematic dis past few months., yun lang.. yun kinukwento lng s akin nung cousin nya.. he!! hayaan mo n iyon dati p iyon e my knya knya n kming priorities ngaun,, tpos n yung story namin!! my iba n akong bubuuing story..pero sna lang dis tym d n mag-fail,, kc ang hirap!!... hayy pasencia n po sa iyo ko n nkwento yung sama ng loob ko kagabi.. and thank you din kc nakinig k..dmo me iniwan.. thanks s concern!! buti di k p ngsswang mkinig sa akin noh.. ang drama drama ng buhay ko... katulad ng text mo knina.. nabitin k ba dun sa text kagabi.. SECRET pb??? wala lng ewan ko... ang gulo ko talaga noh.. cguro nga bcoz im learning to appreciate you more n more,. nd maybe bcoz.. next e-mail na lng po,, he,he,he! bitin ba?.. well ok namn we start as frends and became Best of Frends i think you have Proven yourself n.. well ok! we could be MORE THAN FRENDS n.. (10/2/02)but can we kip it as a secret for a while wla lang d namn me showbiz e.. basta jaz the two of us lng.. ok po!! o masaya kb? Promise not to tell anyone muna ha,...Thnks!! mis col mo ako ng tatlong beses pagnbasa mo n ito ok!!! thanks thanks.... take care always!! *jOan*

OMG, kinikilig pa ako while im copying this aand reading it.. nag flash back lahat!!

Glen as my life, he always supported me whatever decisions i made, but i always ask his opinion din nman in things before i finally decide, he always forgive me if i done nauty things or just being bad at him if i want to get even hehe (bad ako no). His my inspiration in everything i do and i always consider him in every decision i make eventhough sometimes im geeting selfish, but i always remember taht glenn is not just my boyfriend but always be my best friend..

Glenn as my love and my everything he never fails to say i love you, hes the best gift i ever receive, i always had a good laugh with him, he makes me smile, cry and showed me the real meaning of love, i call him, panget, pa, mahal, bb,. eventhough were miles apart he's always there to comfort me and continue loving me..

Thank you Glenko, cant wait to be wrap in your arms again.. I LOVE YOU VERY MUCH!!