finding myself

I must say its not working.. it is really not working.. :(

Its almost everyday that i get irritated and annoyed even on a very small things, i like details, i like stories, i like to know everything, I know it is impossible but i like to know every single thing.. oh God! what is happening to me.. Is this the result of me being traumatized on what happened before?! I cant stop thinking, I cant stop suspecting, I cant stop myself from loving you eitheir.. ARGG! x-( what have you done to me..

Maybe we shoudnt have tried again, Maybe we should have give ourselves time to think and analyze every single thing and Maybe we should learn now how to live each day without each other. But how?! Im adicted to you, I check my messenger every morning my emails my FS messages, My FB wall. ARRG x-(

Now, I have to learn to live each day without u, any of u.. I know this is hard but how can i be the same old me towards you if i didnt do this or even try. I hurt you each day, I hurt myself for making myself angry each time i talked to you, I making a whole mess in both of our lives. I make your day not liveable, i ruin each day, each night..

I will just have to this, not later but now.. So, when the day we meet again Ill be the same person you love from the very first day you laid your eyes on..

Till, we meet again.. Im off to a quest in finding myself..