inang..

My Grandmother from my father side, passed away yesterday at 4:30pm at our family house in Nueva Ecija. When I learned the news from my mother, I cant stop crying for about four hours. These is one of the dreadest day in my life. It is the 2nd time that I lost grandparent, and to make I wasnt home to mourn and pay respect to her. The past few days I was very agitated and kept thinking about something, because since my father's uncle died I was very scared that something will happen and I am not ready in so many ways.

I was telling my dad weeks ago, that Inang will wait for my homecoming before she will rest in peace, dad explained to me that she is really poorly and getting bad as each day passes by. I knew this will come but still it hurts. It hurts because I was hurt for my dad that she loss her mother. A mother is a mother and for me I will feel incomplete without my mother. I realize how much I Love my dad that i kept thinking how will i comfort him despite of the distance. i kept calling my mom for any update, how dad is doing and any detail for my Inangs funeral..

I remember when I was a child we visit her once a month. Pagdating ko she's not satisfied with just a mano she will embrace me tight and say "ang maganda kong apo" =) and She will be busy entertaining us and during siesta time you will find her in the neighboors chatting or sleeping in their room. The house was still made of bamboo sticks but really its was very homey. I remember before they renovate it palagi akong nalalaglag sa my kusina, since it was built since my father was a child so marupok na, so evrytime i run in the kitchen mabubutas ko ung sahig, naku gas gas nnman! My inang was there para patahanin ako.

One time its anihan ng tanim nyang kamatis sa tumana, I asked her if i could make ani din, She said go on and I will pay you Php2.50 per tiklis. Gudness! and init, nagitim n ako at lahat, hindi ko pa rin napuno ang tiklis. So i will end up na nakikiparte na lang sa mga pinsan ko. =)

When she was still strong and younger She is active sa simbahn sa mahal n araw, nagpapluto yan ng pansit at dadalhin nya sa simbahan, syempre bitbit nya kaming mgpipinsan. Actually she got a sense of humour, maloko talaga and talagang tatawa ka.. =)

Oh my God.. I miss my inang, buti n lng umuwi me last january, i still spend time with her although saglit lng but at least di ba. nung pagdating ko ng madamling araw, She's awake and I asked her if she still do remember me, sabi ko anak ni amang. haha! sabi nya "si maan" =,) yey! mnatandaan nya ako and she said "pahinging pera" he,he.. Si Inang talaga.. =)

I know she's now in good hands Of our Lord, Inang i will miss you and Im missing you now. Till we see each other again! love you.. :,(