x-mas with the Laron's

silent war

Its just a few hours away and its the birth day of our saviour Jesus Christ. But still here I am on silent war with my father, I knew deep inside me I wanted to talk to him and burried all the not so nice conversation we had. But still I cant accept that I cannot be the Person I wanted to be.
hmmmm.. maybe one of this days I will just go to him and just give him a hug or maybe tom or next year..:(

Merry Merry x-mas..

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is it over?!

I browse a friends profile and once more I felt this very odd feeling about what she/he have achieved. I always dreamed to be one of them (as I always said) but sometimes when you like something the most it is the one thing that will never come true or you will never get hold at. I just feel sad that I cant do such thing, I feel jealous and I feel downhearted that I will never be it. But i still dont loose hope and I still wish that one day God will give me a reason or a way to make my hearts desire come true.

im Too complicated

As we grow old, there are lots of things that we become aware of, like for me I got an answer to the question ive been asking for the longest time but still it doesnt end there. The results become more complicated for me : (.

When I was still in college Ive been asking myself what I really wanna do after graduation, Im I happy? Im I satisfied? or I wanna be somebody? There is always a voice behind me on evrything I dne for the past years, the voice that guide through my future, but sometimes whenever I fail I always regret that I follow that voice, but still inside me im always thankful.

When I decided to come home for good I finally set my mind on what will I do, I asked my parents If I can go back to school and pursue med, when they agreed I talk to all people concerns and they all approved for the step I will make. But then again.. Just recently I received a phone call from my uncle asking to complete my papers and somebody is willing to apply me for a work permit, inside me I wanted to go but I wanted to be a doctor and there comes my glenn asking "kailan na tyo mgpapaksal?" ahhhhhh I wanted to scream! I wanted to ask!! I wanted to......

why? why? why? when I finally knew what to do, when I finally got the answers it comes in three, now my problem is what to choose??

I want to be a doctor, but I want to get married and have children before im 30 but I also want to see the world :(

my pre-christmas photos

this is me before

Your Money Personality is Chaotic

When it comes to money, you don't know how much is really coming in or going out. And you don't know how much you need to live... and possibly how much you have right now. You spend recklessly on whatever strikes you at the moment. And as far as savings go, you don't have any. You're lucky if you make it to the next paycheck. You need to start keeping track of what you spend, what you save, and what you have. It may not be pretty, but it's better to know than not know!

What's Your Money Personality?

SouPas.

You Are Tomato Soup

You are open minded and curious about the world. You can help but learn as much as you can about things. You are introverted, intellectual, and introspective. In other words, you have a big brain... and you use it. You are a bit of a culinary expert, and you are an excellent cook. You know how to balance delicate flavors well and can whip up a mean bowl of soup.

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long tym

its been a long tym since i write something in this blog. I usually updated the other one in friendster.

Anyway, just an update, My health is in its low point, my back is in trouble. haayy basta, as this moment i feel so low, but I keep reminding myself this is just a trial that I can easily overcome. I still believe and hold to the words " Everything is happening for a reason". I dont loose my faith that I will be better in time..

one more..

Your Personality Is

Guardian (SJ) You are sensible, down to earth, and goal oriented. Bottom line, you are good at playing by the rules. You tend to be dominant - and you are a natural leader. You are interested in rules and order. Morals are important to you. A hard worker, you give your all at whatever you do. You're very serious, and people often tell you to lighten up. In love, you tend to take things carefully and slowly. At work, you are suited to almost any career - but you excel in leadership positions. With others, you tend to be polite and formal. As far as looks go, you are traditionally attractive. You take good care of yourself. On weekends, you tend to like to do organized activities. In fact, you often organize them!

The Three Question Personality Test

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You Are Pretty Happy

You generally have a happy, fulfilling life. But things could be a little better, and deep down, you know it. Maybe you need more supportive friends or a more challenging career. Something is preventing you from being totally happy. You just need to figure out what it is!

How Happy Are You, Really?

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What Your Feet Say About You:

You are pretty average in your expressiveness. You can express yourself well, but you don't always want to. You are a very passionate person. You are highly charged and easily inspired. You are an assertive person at times. You'll pull out all the stops to get what you want, if it's worth it. You take a while to fall in love, but once you do, you stay pretty attached to your partner. You are not afraid of anything. You are brave and courageous, even when most people would be terrified. You are intellectual and philosophical. You are more concerned with thoughts than action. You are an amazingly hard worker. You aren't spoiled and you don't mind getting your hands dirty. You are easily influenced by other people. You're quite impressionable, so you should only be around people who are a good influence.

What Do Your Feet Say About You?

halloween squash

What Your Jack-o-Lantern Says

You tend to be a goofy, optimistic person. You enjoy Halloween more than anyone else you know. This Halloween be as silly as you can - dress up as a giant version of a small object The candy you should give out: laffy taffy

http://www.blogthings.com/thejackolanternquiz/">The Jack-o-Lantern Quiz

this is true..

Your Emoticon is Cool

You're not feeling particularly up or down, just relaxed and calm. You're ready for whatever is going to happen next!

What Emoticon Best Represents You Right Now?

escape to Davao

Happy halloween

You Should Be a Skeleton

You are seen as funny and wacky. You enjoy being the entertainer. You see Halloween as a big party, and you love every costume and decoration. You don't get all that scared on Halloween, though you wish you still did! You love anything gruesome or horrifying. You definitely have a fetish for the macabre.

What Classic Halloween Costume Should You Wear?

family outing

Last sat nyt, I treated the whole family to an overnyt swimming.. the price is not funny but nevertheless its worth it, I saw in the face of the little angels their hapiness and the joy it brought them..

.. and i enjoyed it myself too

happy 6th year anniversary mahalko!!..

yipee!! can you believe inspite of the distance and time difference we're still together not physically but the love that blossomed 6 years ago are still alive and getting stronger each passing day..

In all honesty, at first I didnt see that this relationship will last this long, we are so much different, he's so quite, im talkative, he show his love with action and me I was very vocal about it and so on.. We're opposites in so many ways but Maybe and i believed that's the reason why we get along well.

I have learned and still learning so much more with this relationship each day or week, I keep on discovering new things about him that make me wanna be with him the sooner its possible.(but impossible) This relationship also help me to discover things about myself, the things I can do and things that I should try and so on. It helps me to see life and myself in a very different aspect, different from what I used to be. I didnt changed for Him to love me more or based on what He wants but I changed to makes things work out and for the better.

My beh, keeps me going.. He never loses faith in me inspite of all the trials we've been thru, He's my strenght, my weakness and the answer to my questions. We have a share of our own ups and downs but we still prove to the world that nothing can come between our love. I have nothing to say about him but all Praises.

On our 6th year anniversary Mahalko, I can only say that you have proved me wrong for not believing in this relationship at first. I love you so much and ill see you soon.. (soooooonnnn please!)

england

7 more days to go and I will be heading home for good. Honestly I dont know exactly how will i feel about it maybe it wil be a mixed emotions. I will be sad cause I will be leaving the life i am living for almost 3 years (oh how time quickly flies noh?) and happy that I will go home and spend the rest of being single with my parents. I knew its not sooner but to the fact that one day I will get married and start my own family.

My life here was very simple, fun, sad and full of surprises. Actually I have learned a lot in here, I discovered what can I do and what I cant, I gain an understanding of what life in store for me away from home, and I uncover the real me. The whole experience is very humbling. I have learned to value what I have, always be respectful with others especially the elders and became unassuming.

Im always thankful and always be with all the people who helped me with everything to get over with each day and to whom who stand by me after I fall and rise again. I have my own short comings whom I am sorry, and to whom i cause trouble or to whom I have been the cause of any headache (i hope none!). I always see to it that I please evryone as much as I can whatever it takes to which is not possible but I made sure that I say my apology or be downhearted for whatever I cause.

Life is short and I thank God that my path cross in this part of the world and to whomever I touch lives and to the peole who touch mine. This place together with all my friends and loveones will always have a spot in my heart and always be a part of who I am now. I will always be grateful to everyone and I will always remember the experience, the love, the friendship, the fun and everything YOU brought to my life.

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7 more days to go and I will be heading home for good. Honestly I dont know exactly how will i feel about it maybe it wil be a mixed emotions. I will be sad cause I will be leaving the life i am living for almost 3 years (oh how time quickly flies noh?) and happy that I will go home and spend the rest of being single with my parents. I knew its not sooner but to the fact that one day I will get married and start my own family.

My life here was very simple, fun, sad and full of surprises. Actually I have learned a lot in here, I discovered what can I do and what I cant, I gain an understanding of what life in store for me away from home, and I uncover the real me. The whole experience is very humbling. I have learned to value what I have, always be respectful with others especially the elders and became unassuming.

Im always thankful and always be with all the people who helped me with everything to get over with each day and to whom who stand by me after I fall and rise again. I have my own short comings whom I am sorry, and to whom i cause trouble or to whom I have been the cause of any headache (i hope none!). I always see to it that I please evryone as much as I can whatever it takes to which is not possible but I made sure that I say my apology or be downhearted for whatever I cause.

Life is short and I thank God that my path cross in this part of the world and to whomever I touch lives and to the peole who touch mine. This place together with all my friends and loveones will always have a spot in my heart and always be a part of who I am now. I will always be grateful to everyone and I will always remember the experience, the love, the friendship, the fun and everything YOU brought to my life.

back pain strikes again!!

oh gosh! all my plan was cancel today, for one reason! BACK PAIN.. and the pain is driving me mad, it limits my movements and it hinders me to work more. Just by leaning forward the pain stretches from the middle of my lower back to its sides and going down my right leg. gudness!! ang sakit.. =(

My worries are, I am going home alone next week and the flight is 18 hours long, imagine I will sit on the plane for that long which can trigger the pain at my back. Oh God! what if it hurts badly and i will not be able to move because of the pain? haaayyy i need to walk aroung the plane from time to time so it wont hurt much, im so scared now! =(

I cancel all my part time duties and will just finish my 3 more nyts and thats it! I need to take some rest as this early I have to take early precautions better than to be sorry next week.. so sad, but i will pay a visit to marwa before i go.. i willl surely miss everyone there, they’ve been good to me..

last day out with friends..

This will be my last day out.. next week im heading home for good. I am quite happy with the decision i have made, I am very positive about it. I know that England is not the end of everything for me. There's a lot more chances or opportunity that awaits me, all I need is to stay positive and to keep on believing.

All I need is a month long of complete rest and for sure my back is ready to take off again and seek for another adventure. Im looking forward to it and so excited!!

Thank you's

thank you’ss

I was thinking of writing a thank you note to all the people who give colour to my stay here in England. Soo many of them.. When first came, I dont know what kind of life is stored for me, I keep on praying that things will be alright that I will get a job, i will make friends easily and so on.. But my greatest fear was to speak in english (LOL). i know the language but knowing myself Im too shy and easily get nervous in front of the others that i get lost for words to say. but I thank God i overcome that in some ways (Im still not confident) like hiding,be with someone who will talk for me and just stay in the corner and pretend to do something :).

Anyway here are the random list of people whom I am very thankful for:

1. My aunt and uncle (rose and art)- for giving the opportunity to come here. For all the support and encouragement. Being a mother nd father figure and FOR THE HELP! iLL be 4ever be grateful. I will miss you!!
2. Nanang- for the wonderful food you cook.
3. Sahlee- for being a friend and a big sister. i will miss you sis!
4. Carlito- for being a shoulder to cry on, for lending your ear.
5. Yvette and Alfred- Yvette, you know what we’ve been thru before thanks for being a big sister, and Alfred for the help during my Kfc days (4 shifts)
6. Manager Ethel- An angel in the earth, a big THANKS for giving me the opportunity to work in Manor and in Marwa.. Ill be forever grateful
7. Ate babet and Kuya maning- housemates!
8. Ate Mers-my bestfriend, my confidant,mare, my nanay and shes simply the best!
9. Ate Page and Fhod- my adopted ate and kuya!! Thank you for knowing you for being so kind to me for all the help and the friendship. I wouldnt forget both of you.. i will miss you!
10. Ate may- fighter, my spoke person and a good friend.
11. Tony- the best handy man ive ever known in Aldershot! =) thanks for the ride, for the magnets and the friendship!
12. Jenny- she’s been very good to me. a big sister as well.
13. Lorna- for all the headache you gave me during our night duties =) your such a challenge to be a partner!! n-chachalenge ang senses ko and naeexercise ako lagi.. thanks to you!! love you!
14. Mami Mers- Iba ang Love ko sayo, im always worried about you.. you take care ha, pagaling k mabuti and wag matigas ang ulo. ok?!
15. Tekla- so happy when i learned n kababyan kita. you’ve been a good ate and i will miss jogging with you..
16. Ate Benny- thanks for being nice to me and the wonderfull night duties we’ve shared.
17. ATe Grace and Bai- thank you for the concerns and evrything! send me some pics of your baby ha..
18. Ate Myleen- si liit.. Thanks for giving me hours. thank you!!
19. Jack- oh my jack! your one of the highlights of my stay youre a good friend and thanks for knowing you, for the attention you gave before, i will never forget you!!
20. homa, raj, babita, ramu and lata- thanks Didi’s!
21. Marwa Family- thanks for the warm acceptance and i enjoy working with you guys!
22. Ate Aileen- love working with you. thank you!!
23. and last but not the least MY ROOM, my sweet little cozy room- It witnessed everything my heartache, laughs, bitterness, happiness, lazyness and evrything.. I will miss evry corner. evrything in it!

day out..

im mad..

because somebody pinched my food...

I can be easily annoyed whenever somebody get my things without notice or telling me beforehand. Because I myself dont do that manner, I always see to it that I will tell them before taking any of their belongings.

I just came home from a night duty and only to find out that somebody eat my food without telling me.. How annoying is that??

going roundabout

Evrything was final as in final!

I have submitted my resignation letter to our manager and my last day will be on the 21st of September that will be, 4 weeks from now.. oh how time quickly flies, as I am writning this, I am having a flashback in my mind, the day I came here, the smell of the winter, the evening breeze and the coldness that reminds me that im far from my family and friends and now here I am finishing everyhting.

Its hard but what can I do I have to face my personal life, kc nman instead of working back home after graduating my dad asked me to do all the things that will continue his dream. Not asking if I will be happy with the path He is choosing for me. But dont get me wrong I am happy that He had directed me in this way. Because I wouldnt be who I am now or I wouldnt have everyhting I got without Him. And he never let me take this path all alone, eventhough He was there in the Philippines He guided me in so many ways.

Four weeks from now I will be on a different direction, far from what I was used to for two years, another adventure to take and another goal to accomplish.. Im looking forward for getting back to my old life..

I am happy, very happy! ;)

the question I dont know the right answer

When somebody knew that Im going home for good they always ask me the same question, "bakit uuwi kn?". For me that is a very personal question to answer. i couldnt tell them that gusto ko nman asikasuhin ang personal kong buhay. because there are reasons that some people wouldnt understand or will fail to understand. I know I wouldnt have to please anybody for me to think for the right answer and not owe them an explanation. But I hate when somebody ask me and I just smile at them, because I myself dont know whats the real truth or maybe I just dont want to admit it. (magulo din ako noh!)

Kasi nman everytime I answer them "gusto ko lang!". They started to frown and wouldnt believe. If I said I will get maried. hmmmm I will just get frustrated for making myself believe when Im not. : (

gandang pinay!

You Are a Natural Beauty!

You're the kind of beauty that every guy dreams about... One that looks good in the morning - without a stich of makeup That's doesn't mean you're a total hippie chic though You have style, but for you, style is effortless

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Your Japanese Name Is...

Tomiko Saionji

What's" your Japanese Name?

things to do..

My mind was pre-occupied with lots of things these past few days, ive got few more weeks left but still ive got so many things that need to be done. Mind you, it even comes in my dreams, that almost everyday i will woke up all of a sudden and started to think what are those things i needed to do. (sigh!)

I went to the bank yesterday and inquired if I can transfer my bank account to the Philippines and they said its possible and i needed to talk with one of the in charge to get things processes, so I'll come back on monday. ok! Bank: check and after the salary i will close my other bank and then advise my business manager for it. Next step will be my boxes, I must finish it next week, so i need to sort out all the kalat under my bed. I already filled up two of three boxes and yet still theres more. (parang di nauubos) and schedule a farewell party seperate for friends and family.

And still next week, I must go to the Inland revenue to file my P85. It takes time as well. (ohh I got a headache already) I should put in everything with my schedule and target to finish evrything next week. At least ive been to the bank yesterday.WAy to go !!

wanted it soon..

What Your Ideal Wedding Dress Says About You

Your Personal Style: Funky and a bit retro. You draw from a lot of inspirations, but you always look put together. Your Ideal Wedding: A simple outdoor wedding with a few close friends. Your Philosophy on Marriage: Marriage is a journey. It's not all about who you're married to. It's also about how you approach it. Your Perfect Marriage: Has lots of open communication, flexibility, and understanding. Where both people are happy to give more than get.

The Wedding Dress Test

pretty in pink

What Your Favorite Color Pink Says About You:

Blissful --- Content --- Romantic Idealistic --- Expressive --- Artistic Funny --- Quirky --- Individualistic

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If I wer in Beijing

i will play..

You Are Softball

While you do like competing, you like cooperating even more. You find working with a group to be much more invigorating than going solo. You are a true team player. You like contributing to the win!

What Olympic Sport Are You?

Actually I was surprise with the result of this quiz. I remember nung buhay pa yung mga lolo ko sa mother side, gustong gusto nila akong maging player ng softball. I tried a two day practice but i didnt come back. lol! My gudness, ang hirap ha, the bat was heavy and i couldnt catch the ball. The feminine side of me rules.