online shopping..

what can you say about these items?? are'nt they pretty? hmmm.. but its cost pretty dear too.. just having second thought of purchasing these items.. think! think! think!

my little darling ois..

my aunt send me a cd of pictures, taken early this month when my baby ois (center) e sumali a sagala.. as the saying goes, time flies quicly, my little darling is now a grown up, i remember accompanying her, during her dance practice in school and fetching her after class or tidying her hair before going back to afternoon class.. haayy i miss her year 4 and 5, would you believe next year she's already graduating in elementary and ready to step in high school life then after four years e college na..my god! im missing all those moments in her life.. haaayy.. :( anyway before the year end i will finally see her again and i promise to witness her graduation rights..

isnt she pretty in her gourgeous, simple but elegant gown?! the clolour is for kids tlaga.. ganda noh.. by the way i only sound like her mama but im only he cousin and big sis.. hehe

included in the pic are (l-r) mami doring and daughter pam, mami edith, my nanay, tita glo, aj and katkat.. i miss them much.. especially katkat because she lives in la union, but i woludnt miss to visit them when i go home.. and la union is just an hour away to baguio.. o db double pleasure..

last week round up..

last week was one of the saddest week of my uk life.. :) its because we dont have internet at home, hehe, i felt that i was disconnected from the outside world.. but now, a big thanks! yipee were connected and running again..

watching dvd's was my past tym last week and a trip to ate mers house just to check my mails just in case somebody replied to my online applications.. but unfortunately there's none.. sad :(

i havent been to school for two weeks and oh boy its bad, actualy i already lost interest when i decided to go home when my visa expires, actually i have lots of plans in mind, and cant wait to push it through.. and school was third to my priority list, i know its not good becoz its the reason why im here, but then again, i have lots of excuses.. hehe :) anyway, my working hours is perfectly alright and im happy, i just need to save more, oh dear!! i need to learn the meaning of the word not just knowing how to spell it (s-a-v-e)! i just need to think of all of my plans so i get some motivation.. go go go joan!!

last friday,i reminded our business manager that i was 36hrs underpaid for the month of march, and she said i just called at the right ime because she's calculating the hours, but then again when i received my pay slip, they didnt pay my bank holiday so i need to remind her next time for another 6 hours .. gosh!

diet please..

haaayy eto wala lng.. im too tired, i cant think anymore of all the topics ive been wanting to write.. its been quite a while i havent updated my blog for some reason, and im quite busy the past few days (busy doing nothing) hehe actually im busy planning my diet after two of my not so called friend teased me that i gained weight

scene #1: exactly a week ago a kapwa pinoy told me that " o tingnan mo tong batang toh, ang taba taba na.." i wanted to protest but i just smiled at him.. hmp! pakitingnan sarili please.. ;(

scene #2: a foreign co-worker teased me that i looked that i couldnt breathe in with my uniform..hmp pansinin b kc after lunch, e di of course busog noh (ayaw umamin! lol)

so after all of those teasing and allegations (lol) i am cutting my food intake and even trying the after 6 diet, o boy! 10 oclock in the evening, i already feel so hungry, so i just tuck myself into bed and sleep and think that its for my own good n din.. hehe

anyway, still long way to go to achieve my desired weigth.. patience patience and more patience..

galiye's dedication

last sunday (18.05.08) was galiye's dedication, it was held in a christian church in fleet, it went very well and everyone enjoyed the occasion. after being dedicated, the children went to a what they sunday school and the worshipping continues for us adult. it was my first time to attend such kind of group, (im a catholic) i can say i enjoyed it, its far different from what i used to but the faith is there and to sum it u whatever group was formed we still have one God but in different belief..

i had this funny moment , when the pastor was saying some situations and encouraging the people to open to the LOrd their hearts, their problems and their soul,. i was just quitely listening with my head bowed,in a way im participating in a quite manner, i just dont feel liked voicing it, and suddenly i felt that somebody was staring at my direction when i lifted my head up and opened my eyes the pastor was speaking to me and said "if your broken hearted, just say it to the Lord, let your heart out shout it YES LORD!" not an offence but i wanted to burst out into laughter, not because im the youngest of the group and the only one single it means i came from shattered relationship..lol! FYI my heart is singing happy although weve been apart for a long time..

anyway, after the worshipping, we head home and had a feastive dinner, combination of filipino and turkish food..yummy! all had a good time the girls enjoyed inside the house, picture takings, chatting, laughing and non-stop eating (sira nman and diet)..lol, and once again were a united nation, filipino, turkish, nepalis, english and chinese.. o b saya saya!

high school memories

the other day while we were walking home, topic about high school life suddenly pop from no where, ate lorna and I we were gigling about it all the way home..
i wonder what happend to all my friends and batchmate back then, im happy and contented on where i am now but im still striving for the best..we will be celebrating our decade anniversary next year, oh god! hove time quickly flies..


lets reminise..


i enjoy my high school life the most, you will learn almost everything in high school, from academics to kalokohan, personal to relationships, maghabol ng crush, sundan, mind you pati mga rooms and skeds alam..lol! when your in first year, your still afraid to break the rules, you still wer the proper uniform, shoes and you follow the time table, never been late, present in all school activities, and you bought all the school ticket, public school but so many charity tickets and soliciting.. in second year, medyo ok na its like you pass in first year so you have the guts now to do something and break a little rule, medyo pasaway na.. third year, medyo matigas n bungo, cutting classes, not attending p.e. you got all the allibis in the whole school, not wearing proper uniform, tinatakasan ang guard.. fourth year, medyo mabait n hindi.. mabait coz baka di ka mk-graduate and hindi kc matigas n ulo aba e fourth year na senior years kumbaga, hari harian n, kayan kayannan mga first year.. (hindi ako un ha.. im not friendly e) hehe.


i will remember the most is my friends, we were together since our first year, ng-away, nagtampuhan etc.. but on the funny side kakaiba sila, i got this two friends who use "papel de hapon and crepe paper" as their lipstick, oops yes.. you read it right.. theyre most happy when christmas is coming..lol!but sometimes candy, do you remember the lipps candy? o db mas sosi yon and mas red, instant glow n sa lips mo.. and most of them carry in their badgs a handy mirror, it comes in all shapes and sizes and color, its eitheir thay kept it in their pocket, purse o they just ket it in their hands (just in case they bump in their crushes, quick look muna baka my muta..lol) they even retuch before going home, o db uuwi n lng they still have to look their best..

im a late bloomer, i dont do things like that during that period, im not very concious and dont even care how i look.. before i go out of our house, i just comb my hair and ayos na.. its because when i was kid allergic ako sa powder and i dont feel like being a girl.. (the truth is im boyish at that time) but i always keep a hanky in hand, just in case something wrong happend to me or i was being humiliated or anything (im a cry baby) i have something to wipe my tears.. one time somthing happened in the classroom and i went out of the room because my teacher was very angry, (coz i dont want to participate in a test or quiz bee) i was weeping in the corregidor, and my crush was coming in the direction im facing, hmp! i dont care naiiyak ako e.. i always been a unconfident girl, maybe because of the past experience..


batch 99.. i hope my re union so we can catch up, and see each other again up close and personal.. not only here in friendster..


good luck evryone and God bless

controlling our emotions.. (from yahoo mail)

1. This is a very good reminder for all of us.
   
   HOW TO CONTROL EMOTIONS
   
   This would give you guides on how to control your emotions towards your better-half, friends, officemates and all the people around you, especially your "boss". The rules of practicing "ugaling langit, ugaling kaaya-aya" :
   
   #1 Ang naunang magalit ang may karapatang magalit. Pag naunahan ka na ng galit niya, tumahimik ka na lang muna.
   
   #2 Walang taong nag-aaway mag-isa. Pag hindi kayo sumagot o pumatol, titigil din daw ang taong nakikipag- away sa inyo.
   
   #3 Ang taong galit, 'bingi.' If someone is angry, wala raw pinakikinggan, so, don't try to explain and fight back. Hindi ka niya iintindihin dahil wala siyang naririnig kundi ang sarili nya.
   
   #4 Ang taong galit, 'abnoy.' Ayon sa pastor, Biblical daw ito? because the Lord said when He was crucified, "Father, patawarin mo sila dahil hindi nila alam ang kanilang ginagawa." Modern term for these kinds of people are abnoys, so you better not get angry para huwag kang matawag na abnoy.
   
   You should also know and realize that the persons who make your day bad are jewel, because you need them for you to mature. Hangga't andyan daw sila at kinaiinisan mo, ibig sabihin, immature ka pa. God will not take away those people; it's for you to take away your bad feelings towards them. You'll know na mature ka na pag dumating 'yung time na hindi ka na naiinis sa mga taong ito because you have learned to accept them and to have patience with them.
   
   #5 Finally, the best part of this is to tell yourself na, because of this person, "I will grow mature,"
   and that DAHIL SA CONTRIBUTION NIYA SA MATURITY MO, KUKUNIN DIN SYA NI LORD, (joke).

ready!

as i was working last night i couldnt help but kept on thinking about my plans when i come home in the philippines.. so much things to do and so much thing to think, but evrytime my thought come across it, i cant hide the happiness i was feeling.. im so excited and i know inside me im ready to take another step in my career and in my life im ready to take another big leap.
another place, another beginning and another chapter, its not easy to start all over again but i wouldnt how is it until i give it a shot! haaayyy cant wait! i feel so ecstatic about it!! GOod luk to me until the right time comes..

pooh missing her tigger

glenn post this pictures today, this was taken t his work..

its nice to see him happy in what He is doing, and i couldnt help but to feel proud for him, he been dreaming of this eversince he started working back home, he got big dreams, thats why when he receive the news that his application was approved, he couldnt hode his happiness, it was a mix emotion for him, he's worrying that i may not see him before he go (because his flight schedule was in time for my vacation, good thing it was moved) but God's willing n mag abot p kmi and spend 1 1/2 week together, its was an amazing week, we couldnt get enough of each other, being always there is enough eventhough i kept sleeping ang He was doing all the chores (poor bb) as in, cooking, waking me up, planning my scheds, puttig me to sleep, buying my breakfast,etc.. he makes my vaction worth it.. and now, we plan to go home at the same mo.(cross finger) i really pray that it will push through, but anyway im just in the philippines waiting for him, while doing my things..

bb, you take care always.. and i love you much..

not a day off..

its tuesday once again and that means its school day, after a night duty i have no choice but to straight to school after a few hours of rest (rest that i spend chatting with friends)lol. i was dead tired on the train on the way to London and after class, i couldnt help not to eat more than i was allowed bcoz of tiredness.. so i finish a small order of pepperoni pizza, chicken wings, chips, coke and a chocolate pudding.. (cra nnman ang diet..lol)

smile p kuno but behind those...

cant help but sleep on the way

home..zzzzzz!

hAppy mothErs day!!

just moments ago i receive this text message form ate sally..

your mother is always with you..she's the whisper of the leaves as you walk down the street; shes the smell of bleach in your freshly laundered socks; She's the cool hand in your brow when you're not well. Your mother lives inside your laughter.and She's crystallized inevry tear drop. She's the place you came from, your first home;and Shes the map you followwith every step you take. She's your first love and your first heartbreak, and nothing on earth can seperate you. Cheers to our mother!!

my mother and I are same different. shes very domesticated, me if i just feel like.. ( but i am now, because i need to..:D) we bothe like shopping, shes galante if she have extra, me, i dont do budgets..hehe we both like bags, like when i was in the ph, i use all her bags and my bonus it got money dagdag pamasahe, o pang candy (coins)Lol! we love to travel and go for a short break, were hard workers and Gd fearing..

we are the best of friends. were closer now and very open with each other, as i grew up She's my constant companion, i depend a lot to her, she's very doting,very sweet inside and very quite. She raise us with all her best, attend to all our needs, fight for what we are entitled for and cried inside whenever one of us get hurt.

i became closer to her when i went here in england, for the first time i will be separated with her for the longest time. i constantly phone her and her to me. i became more open to her, i tell her evrything, my problems, heart ache, failures, excitement, happiness, and evrything that i am experiencing here! she never get tired of my own stories, even how weird i can get shes patiently listening on the other end. she even sends me things i needed, shes my lifeline and my friend.

nanay, i missing you much and its only few months from now (or even weeks) and we will see each other again, i cant wait to go shopping with you and talk non-stop.. love you a lot!

deCided but still cOnfused.. : (

ive been hunted with some thoughts for a few days now and the advice im getting from friends made me more confused..(siggghhh)

because of the things going around my work place im thinking of cutting my stay short (as i said in my last blog) because i dont have any assurance what will happen tom, if im still be having a job or their own law of convinience has changed again and we will be the one who will suffer from it. (long siggghhh again..) im beginning to panic and couldnt work like before. just last night i notice that i can be annoyed easily and can loose patient completely and i hate myself being all that.. so i just walked away and talk to myself that its not fair for them to be affected or be the one n mapagbuntunan ng lahat ng ngyayari..

i asked four friends and i got a four different answer as well that made me totally confused.. haaaayy

personally, i am decided that whatever will happen i will not re-new my visa for so many reasons that some people wouldnt understand, so i woundnt detailed it much. i thought it many times and end up with a same solution.

i just keep in mind that there is life after all of these and this place is not the end of my dreams, but leaving it and ending it will be a new beginning of something great, this is not my land. but this country has thought me many things and i will keep it and be my guidelines with the new journey im going to take

i wish and hope that all the person close to my heart will understand that i have to this for some reason and another. i will take all the memories, laughs, cries and the friendship you offer me..

sHort personality tEst

Your Personality Profile

You are nurturing, kind, and lucky. Like mother nature, you want to help everyone. You are good at keeping secrets and tend to be secretive. A seeker of harmony, you are a natural peacemaker. You are good natured and people enjoy your company. You put people at ease and make them feel at home with you.

The World's Shortest Personality Test

conservative..

You Are Not a Tease

You definitely know how to flirt, but you usually choose not to. You're not the type of girl who leads guys on - and men appreciate that. Your charms and sexiness are saved for the one guy you're into... And for that, he digs you even more!

Do Men Think You're You A Tease?

fLower pOwer

What These Roses Say About You

You are a classic romantic who believes in true love. You often experience deep emotions and feel warmth toward almost everyone. You are a bundle of positive feelings and sweetness.

http://www.blogthings.com/whatdotheflowersyoupicksayaboutyouquiz/">What Do The Flowers You Pick Say About You?

sPring 2008

this week was very sunny and we dont want to miss it so im sharing our bonding moment under the spring sunshine!!

sPring is hEre!

@Park

love the surroundings..

with my ate mErs

enjoying the spring sun

eating out

posing for the camera
:D

loving the sun..

catch me im falling..

my day started really bad, the kangaroo nurse annoyed me and the rest of the jinx follows..

i havent thought that today will changed evrything ive planned for, another judgment today for me, another trial and another unforgetable moments.. the place i used to love is a total dissaster right now, the head was both a horrible cow.. i really dont know how will i express my feelings right now im in a total mess, im so confused and really cant decide what i want at this moment.. but one things for sure my plan is soon to take place, much earlier than expected..

my working hours is again reduced to the mininum and now i dont know what will hapen to me, i was calculating, and realise that im goin to earn only what i need to sustain my stay here. not a very good point of continuing to live here. ad considering that why should i stay longer and continue all these and in the end i will just end up in the same story why dont i cut the story short. these are the thoughts that continuesly playing in my mind. (long sighhhh)

actually after hearing the news i hurriedly run to the computer and check the ticketing website and check the flight availability on july.. i feel so stressed and couldnt express what i really want, i feel so down, why all of these is happening again when im trying to rebuild all the hope that once lost and now for the 2nd time all of it was falling apart again.. again again again.. i was given to see that there is light after the darkness, but now after a small sign of brigthness it became gloomy once more...

Im a worker..

the other night i was thinking what will i do when i get home.. i was thinking of having my own small business, but i wont be a good manager, i better off as a worker.. i like to keep myself busy doing something rather than giving orders, do this, do that.. oh no im not the type and i dont think i would be an effective one, im very soft and sometimes id rather do it myself than ask somebody.. maybe because thats the way i was brought up, i grew without depending on anyone, if you a thing work hard for it to get it. and to tell you the feeling is awesome and you learn to treasure that thing.

some people see me as a walng alam, i mean they think that i cant do household chores or be domesticated, so one time i asked myself.. wat are they thinking of me? and panu b ako makisama? anu bang aura ko? hehe.. i just hope they know me before they judge me..
anyway, when i was a small child i was exposed with the family business, the flower shop and the tumana, my father used to plant so many vegetables and we even help during harvest time and it was so much fun. one time my grandma was harvesting tomatoes and if you fill up one tiklis, you will be paid 2.50 pesos, at that time its quite big for a child like me, and i can buy a peanut butter sandwich for that, but while i was harvesting, i get irritated and because ive been under the sun for long time and i still couldnt fill up the container, so i give up and ask for my cousin help.. so i end up having just half of the money.. LOL

i also tried harvesting calamansi, and daddy will pay P1 per kilo. o god! i almost wreck the tree and i still couldnt fill up one red bag, i just end up with 8 kilos most of the time.. lol

but with those experiences my eyes were opened in a very young age na, you give value in whatever you have in life especially the things you work hard, kc i wouldnt pay any happiness in the word if you achieve something na you know that you really give your best to get it..
and it taught me na life is not easy, the things i got from my parents e dugo at pawis ang binuhos para i can have the luxury in life.. and i taught me rin na kung di ka masipag you wont get anywhere..

dadi, is a very hardworking man and he love what his doin and the dedication to achieve something is really there, he works along his men sa tumana, so he knows whats happening and what are the things nid to be done.... maybe nakuha ko sa knya ung sipag at tyaga.. kya id better be a worker than a boss..

bbc no more..

last wednesday night duty ate mers, told me something that made me really think. While putting the residents in bed, and me wiping the bottom she suddenly said "naku mamimiss mo mg punas ng pwet". quite funny but i just answered her with a smile.

when i was alone cleaning the lounge her words cross my mind and i had a flash back when i was still starting with the job. i was barely a month here in england when i started working as "health care assistant" other refers it as a "british bum cleaning". anyway, like others i had a very memorable first day at work. ate lorna she was then 3 mos pregnant asked me together with the other new lady if we want to serve breakfast or work on the floor. i choose to work on the floor with the thought of "cleaning the floor" as in mopping, floor waxing or etc not knowing that it means assisting the residents in washing and dressing. bad choice isn'it?!(lol) i was partnered with james and we done mrs c. with her i had my first stomach punch and was thinking of quiting the job there and then (lol)

as the days and months pass i learned to cope with my new environment and started to get used with the job and earned the residents and co-workers trust. i was the youngest for three months i was everybody's bunso and little sister but june came 3 more Filipinas came and work and became good friends of mine.

i learned the work pattern and had different time shifts. i was enjoying what i am doing but sometimes it came to a point that you dont want to do the things your used to.. nakakasawa din minsan its been a routine and you want to break it by doing something. you want to try new thinks and have to decide and choose what you think is best.

now im facing a big decision in my life, and as for now im choosing to leave everything behind me, and im quite decided with the steps im going to take. i need to do this for my parents and for my future sake. i know i will miss evrything in here but i have to take a step forward and start a new. things werent be easy for me as well but as i said i have to do it now or never.

haaayy i know this is a big step but, people around me will understand and will stand by me whatever decision i made and it will be a big help and i will always be grateful. i wont forget eveyrone here in england.. anyways, theres plenty of time to catch up and do all the best we can..